I caved in and told my loved ones I'm unwell

[storeboughtisfine]

I have been bottling this up for weeks but i finally just let some people know. Its not like the physical parts of my suicidal ideations have been hidden. But i gave words to symptoms today. I disclosed to a few of my closest circle ive been suicidal and was making a plan, until i got a spot in at a new doctor's office tomorrow.

And i made a promise to them i would go to the hospital if the visit doesnt go how i need it to.

So my plan is going away for now, and im terrified of going inpatient again, but i'm mostly just holding out hope things will fall into place the way i need them to.

Words would be appreciated right now.

Update: partners are not taking this well. Im so tired.

 

[floaxed]

It's good that you told someone about how you're feeling. I hope you find happiness, nobody should die, nobody really deserves to die, we deserve our pain to stop. I hope you get better

 

[EmpathyMinded]

It's a start. Things were never going to be completely better overnight. Proud of you for trying this though if that's what you want to do, takes strength to rise up when that much weight is on your shoulders. Stay focused, and make sure you give yourself plenty of opportunities to do little things to make you happy. I believe in you.

 

[storeboughtisfine]

It's a start. Things were never going to be completely better overnight. Proud of you for trying this though if that's what you want to do, takes strength to rise up when that much weight is on your shoulders. Stay focused, and make sure you give yourself plenty of opportunities to do little things to make you happy. I believe in you.

Thank you friend.

It's good that you told someone about how you're feeling. I hope you find happiness, nobody should die, nobody really deserves to die, we deserve our pain to stop. I hope you get better

I'm hoping I can pull it together

 

[BlissCore]

Its a journey, and you took the first steps, which is huge,im proud of you.There can and probably will be people you may lose along the journey, but that shows who is there for you and who isnt. I really hope its easy as possible for you.

 

[Das Nichts]

It's great that you are attempting this. Try to be patient with yourself, like others said it's a process.

 

[Valky]

I am so proud of you for reaching out. Often it is not the validation we need for others but from ourselves. Speaking out loud our problems and therefore admitting those feelings is already a big and always not easy step to recovery. So even if they don't take it well, it is important that you know that you have done the right thing.

 

[cgrtt.brns]

telling anyone you're struggling is never easy, let alone your loved ones. im glad and i really hope things work out for you. how are you feeling now?

 

[storeboughtisfine]

telling anyone you're struggling is never easy, let alone your loved ones. im glad and i really hope things work out for you. how are you feeling now?

I'm trying to hold out hope for better days.

 

[cgrtt.brns]

i dont know what if anything i could say to help, but i know its difficult especially when better days seem like such a distant dream. you're not alone. i really do wish you the best.

 

[SunflowerBrains]

It's so courageous to reach out for help. I hope things turn out okay. Good luck, and best wishes!

 

[Artictart]

It takes a lot to reach out and get help. I wish you the best <3