Kristicide
I am a prisoner locked up behind xanax bars
- Dec 16, 2021
- 330
Just venting cause I had a fucking shitty day and being angry is an understatement. I slammed so many doors and broke shit in my apartment cause I can't deal with everything going wrong for me. I feel like I'm cursed. I spent the last 2 days preparing for an unexpected interview and still feel unprepared and will do horrible. Literally spent 16-18hrs doing research and having all the proper notes. Today my psychiatrist bailed on our appointment. He sent in all the wrong amounts for my prescriptions so I'll run out mid month and my insurance won't pay for the balance I'm owed. So I'll go 2 weeks without taking my meds. This isn't the first time this doctor has done this. It's happened more times than it hasn't happened. I've made it a habit to always text them the correct amounts and dosages bc of this and they still fuck it up. Then randomly another recruiter reached out about a job. I was gonna send her an updated resume since she had an older one. Well now all my files are either corrupted, won't open at all, or are completely reformatted that they are impossible to read. I have no idea how that could have happened and I've tried a million different things to fix it but can't. So now I gotta rewrite everything which will take forever which just looks bad so I can forget about that job. I just want my SN to come. I don't care about getting a job at this point. My life sucks.