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throwaway123
Hell0
- Aug 5, 2018
- 1,446
All these goodbye posts. So much pain and suffering. I'm tired. I can't read trough their posts anymore. I can't bear it. I want to end my suffering.
Everyday there's a new "goodbye" post and people wish them good luck and safe travels but I can't. I just want to leave. You all act like it's normal. Behind every post there's a person with feelings who just took their life. It's not just letters on a screen. How can you stand it? Seeing other people succeed while you're still here?
Sometimes I see how people join,stay for two days and then CTB. It's very common. Just think of all those silent lurkers. Every forty seconds there's someone killing himself. A million every year. I don't want to be stuck here any longer. I am running in circles. Everyone I know eventually kills himself and I'm the last one to be stuck here. How long do you think people last here?
I think most just stick around for a few days reading the resource thread and then going ahead. Maybe they'll open up a new account if they have questions. I think we are the kind of people who are in-between. Stuck in limbo.The kind who can't live and can't die. Eventually we have to decide. It's just the question of when. I think I'm very close. I always come up with new excuses. I need to stop and get my shit together. I think CTB requires impulse. Maybe an emotional trigger, another traumatic event in life.
"Just do it" Sounds so easy and maybe it is. We need to stop procrastinating.
Everyday there's a new "goodbye" post and people wish them good luck and safe travels but I can't. I just want to leave. You all act like it's normal. Behind every post there's a person with feelings who just took their life. It's not just letters on a screen. How can you stand it? Seeing other people succeed while you're still here?
Sometimes I see how people join,stay for two days and then CTB. It's very common. Just think of all those silent lurkers. Every forty seconds there's someone killing himself. A million every year. I don't want to be stuck here any longer. I am running in circles. Everyone I know eventually kills himself and I'm the last one to be stuck here. How long do you think people last here?
I think most just stick around for a few days reading the resource thread and then going ahead. Maybe they'll open up a new account if they have questions. I think we are the kind of people who are in-between. Stuck in limbo.The kind who can't live and can't die. Eventually we have to decide. It's just the question of when. I think I'm very close. I always come up with new excuses. I need to stop and get my shit together. I think CTB requires impulse. Maybe an emotional trigger, another traumatic event in life.
"Just do it" Sounds so easy and maybe it is. We need to stop procrastinating.