jeevasO-o
Disqualified As a Human Being
- Jan 15, 2026
- 33
It's stupid, but I genuinely can't stop doing it. I get horny from the stupidest things. I don't even want it or enjoy it. Why do I keep fantasizing about that?? I know hypersexuality, but from where do I have this?? How can I stop this? I'm so sick of masturbating before going to bed. It's like I'm forcing myself, I don't want it, but the urges are too much. I'm not even that wet mostly it's dry as fuck which makes it worse and more unpleasant. It's hurting and making me so sick and tired afterwards.
Not to mention the sick fantasies I keep having. It's like I wish I would get raped. I know I don't actually want it. I remember as a kid (don't know the age but my gut feeling is saying 6 years old. I know I was under 9 years though) where I had this one night I remember so vividly. I was in my bed
I don't remember ever experiencing sexual assault or rape though. (Except with
) I know my parents kind of sexualized me but not in a way that they touched me or something. More like comments. "don't dress like a slut!" "Close your legs while sitting!" "do you wanna show your ass and tits to guys??" "If you are so naive you'll get raped" and shit like that. Not great, inappropriate yes. But they didn't do anything to me.
Not to mention the sick fantasies I keep having. It's like I wish I would get raped. I know I don't actually want it. I remember as a kid (don't know the age but my gut feeling is saying 6 years old. I know I was under 9 years though) where I had this one night I remember so vividly. I was in my bed
and touching myself but not enjoying it. While doing it I thought about how I get raped and experimented on. Then I kept thinking "in future I'll just be an experiment or something and get used", then I went to wash my hands, lied down with mixed feelings.
I don't remember ever experiencing sexual assault or rape though. (Except with
15 I got raped but I had it before that and the reason I got raped was because I thought I wanted it and let myself get used. Spoiler: I did not want it and yes..
