23 years of my life I've been failed my medical professionals. Kidnapped by my grandmother as a baby and only given a weekly visit to my parents. Everyone treated this BPD behaviour as normal. Had to live 22 years stuck in that panopticon of a house, watched by cameras, no locks in sight. not a bit of psychological help given, no one even cared to ask. Just had to be a tranny and have a severe medical deformity from underbite too, right? had to be told for decades that doctors could do nothing, forced to undergo two hellish lefort 3s only to continue seeing my disgusting male face shining through. No one listened to my opinion, they just had no problem seeing everything go awry for months and only bothered to tell me when the reop was already scheduled.
How many supposed professionals with decades of experience have I reached out to for help over my life? why haven't they even started to help me? what did I give up all this control FOR?
Well, I'm tired of it all. I have a million dollars in liquid assets and made my career off building fault tolerant systems for FAANG companies. The entire system let someone as destructive and talented as me grow up with no help and then decided it was a good idea to take away the little bits of comfort I clawed for in one fell swoop by taking away my meds for months, making me reoperate and forcing me back into that hell of a household now with my entire family watching me 24/7? only to now tell me that the first two weeks are pointing to a failure and need of a re-op again entirely because you all were too conservative to let me exercise my mouth and the solution to that is somehow continuing to afford me nothing for another 5 days?
I'm killing myself on wednesday and there's nothing that can stop me anymore. It's already too late to try to stop me unless you want a fuckton of lost shareholder value from me being a bit too prepared for people taking control away from me. Next week I'll go away peacefully and we can all forget just another individual lost through no one in particular's fault.
If anyone is interested in helping me out in at least letting me spread my message, I'll be in Foz do Iguaçu, Paraná, Brazil, feel free to meet me in one of the big parks or drop your phone number for me to contact you directly. You'll know me when you see me.
btw i could probably also NOT kill myself if anyone gaf even as I'm this depressed. I go dissociative during the day and I literally just have no safety net
tried to match on tinder literally just to have someone on speed dial in case things got bad and guess what
2/7 matches told me explicitly to kill myself, the other 5 didnt bother to initiate and i dont have the motivation to do it
its literally everyone, i dont blame them, i cant blame individuals anymore
i could peacefully solve all my problems if people just gave me a year to stop controlling me, you all failed, can I do my own shit for once?
How many supposed professionals with decades of experience have I reached out to for help over my life? why haven't they even started to help me? what did I give up all this control FOR?
Well, I'm tired of it all. I have a million dollars in liquid assets and made my career off building fault tolerant systems for FAANG companies. The entire system let someone as destructive and talented as me grow up with no help and then decided it was a good idea to take away the little bits of comfort I clawed for in one fell swoop by taking away my meds for months, making me reoperate and forcing me back into that hell of a household now with my entire family watching me 24/7? only to now tell me that the first two weeks are pointing to a failure and need of a re-op again entirely because you all were too conservative to let me exercise my mouth and the solution to that is somehow continuing to afford me nothing for another 5 days?
I'm killing myself on wednesday and there's nothing that can stop me anymore. It's already too late to try to stop me unless you want a fuckton of lost shareholder value from me being a bit too prepared for people taking control away from me. Next week I'll go away peacefully and we can all forget just another individual lost through no one in particular's fault.
If anyone is interested in helping me out in at least letting me spread my message, I'll be in Foz do Iguaçu, Paraná, Brazil, feel free to meet me in one of the big parks or drop your phone number for me to contact you directly. You'll know me when you see me.
btw i could probably also NOT kill myself if anyone gaf even as I'm this depressed. I go dissociative during the day and I literally just have no safety net
tried to match on tinder literally just to have someone on speed dial in case things got bad and guess what
2/7 matches told me explicitly to kill myself, the other 5 didnt bother to initiate and i dont have the motivation to do it
its literally everyone, i dont blame them, i cant blame individuals anymore
i could peacefully solve all my problems if people just gave me a year to stop controlling me, you all failed, can I do my own shit for once?
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