Venting I can't kill myself, i can't leave him behind

[overmorrow]

the thought of leaving my partner behind hurts my soul, but living is too difficult, it's such a struggle to wake up everyday and try my best, i have no energies , at the same time though, knowing ill leave him in this horrible and cruel world alone, makes me uneasy , i wish everyone would dissapear, then dying, wouldn't be so soul crushing,

 

[purpp37]

All partners will forget you and move onto the next person, even if they don't forget you they'll find someone else. I stayed alive for my exes and it only led to me not being able to CBT in the way I wanted to so I regret it. If I could go back in time I'd point a middle finger to their face and blow my brains out knowing they'd leave regardless. It doesn't matter, death is victory, remember that!