Venting I can't hold on to any interest

[AllReturnsToNothing]

Title. I don't really have any real passions. I mean, there are things that I enjoy and I guess i've enjoyed for a while, but I never hold on to them too tightly or for too long. I just float from one interest to the other with no rhyme or reason, unable to focus on any one thing for any prolonged period of time before I get bored of it. I do have ambitions. I always wanted to create things which is probably why I wanted to be an artist as a kid. I grew out of that as I got burned out and lost interest in traditional visual art. Then my ambition moved to video games and I wanted to learn how to code extensively but after taking an object oriented programming class I lost interest in that too when I became too frustrated with the complexity of it. I even had renewed interest in rom hacking trying my hand and using tools created by other people to try and make something special with my own touch, and I fell off of that. Didn't even finish a single level. I tried writing again and fell off of that too. I don't have any long term passion to hold on too. Just vague and impossible hopes of graunduer and success with no tools to get there. I can never stick to anything and see it through. That must be why I left my job less than 8 months in. I get burned out and start decaying and burdened. I can't even finish the tiniest simple self-indulgent projects before I get tired and give up. I'll never be able to see anything through. I am nothing.

 

[Brick In The Wall]

Title. I don't really have any real passions. I mean, there are things that I enjoy and I guess i've enjoyed for a while, but I never hold on to them too tightly or for too long. I just float from one interest to the other with no rhyme or reason, unable to focus on any one thing for any prolonged period of time before I get bored of it. I do have ambitions. I always wanted to create things which is probably why I wanted to be an artist as a kid. I grew out of that as I got burned out and lost interest in traditional visual art. Then my ambition moved to video games and I wanted to learn how to code extensively but after taking an object oriented programming class I lost interest in that too when I became too frustrated with the complexity of it. I even had renewed interest in rom hacking trying my hand and using tools created by other people to try and make something special with my own touch, and I fell off of that. Didn't even finish a single level. I tried writing again and fell off of that too. I don't have any long term passion to hold on too. Just vague and impossible hopes of graunduer and success with no tools to get there. I can never stick to anything and see it through. That must be why I left my job less than 8 months in. I get burned out and start decaying and burdened. I can't even finish the tiniest simple self-indulgent projects before I get tired and give up. I'll never be able to see anything through. I am nothing.

You're not nothing, you're just depressed. What you're talking about is a classic symptom of depression.

It could also be that you just haven't found that one thing to stick to yet. Start with smaller goals/hobbies/projects and go from there.

 

[AllReturnsToNothing]

You're not nothing, you're just depressed. What you're talking about is a classic symptom of depression.

It could also be that you just haven't found that one thing to stick to yet. Start with smaller goals/hobbies/projects and go from there.

I know I'm depressed but like so many people are able to complete work and projects despite their depression! I just can't seem to do that. I mean, I started with a smaller project a week or two ago writing a short story but then I had more ideas and it got bigger and became too much and I wasn't able to get beyond a single page and a half of a really really rough draft that didn't have an ending. And I don't think I'll be able to replicate that frenzied enthusiasm I had for it when I started. Every project becomes a big project for me, whether it started relatively small and stayed that way or grew to a size bigger than I can manage, I just can't seem to deal with it. I just want to see things to completion instead of toiling away at something that won't even be appreciated.