requiemforadream
This little fellow is getting tired
- Jan 1, 2025
- 44
I want to leave in a few days but there is one thing going in my head, I want him to know my motives, I want my child to understand why I did that. I dont want him to cry over his whole life because one man couldn't stand it all. He won't care until he grow up. No man is one man army.
How can I leave him the message, in case he would search for me later in his life? I can't stand the pain anymore and I really would love to continue this journey solely for him but it's unbearable by now. I want him to understand. But how one child could understand why does his dad killed himself. I am too messed up to life by my own.
I want him to know that I loved him and I will love him forever. I want him to know that I did my best to save him and myself. I want him to know who I was and who could he be. My heart has been split milion of times already for the past three years thinking about it.
How can I leave him the message, in case he would search for me later in his life? I can't stand the pain anymore and I really would love to continue this journey solely for him but it's unbearable by now. I want him to understand. But how one child could understand why does his dad killed himself. I am too messed up to life by my own.
I want him to know that I loved him and I will love him forever. I want him to know that I did my best to save him and myself. I want him to know who I was and who could he be. My heart has been split milion of times already for the past three years thinking about it.
