I laid in bed all day thinking. I'm alone but. Not really alone. I choose to be. I feel the depression creeping up. The tingling cold sensation in my skin like pins and needles. My brain yells and makes it go away. But it's addicting and I want more. I miss sad depressed me but hate her at the same time. It's better then being empty inside. I have no reasons to be this way no excuse. Except major depression is no joke and it comes and goes. So I read the sad posts on instagrams. And look at old suicide notes and cutting scenes. And I get dragged into the darkness some more and more. I'm starting to not mind it. And that is dangerous. Anywho yeah
Yeah. I'm on my bed too. Depressive. And I can't be like this anymore. I dont want to see me like this. I prefer to be dead. I just stared at ceilling for many minutes asking myself when all this will finish. I dont even have energy to research for a method.
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muffin222
Enlightened
- Mar 31, 2020
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I'm sorry you're going through this. Depression is such an awful disease. You're not alone in this struggle 
Are you perhaps intending to CTB by being eaten, because that avatar looks, well, tempting......I'm sorry you're going through this. Depression is such an awful disease. You're not alone in this struggle
I keep going over and over in my head how lucky I am. I do want to live. Yes I have purpose. By why is it such a constant battle in my head to Be happy. I don't think I could ever take my own life. And that's part of the battle because I have to figure out a way to survive. And I mean life is short if you think about. It may not be the life you want. But it will get there. I'm sorry that you have to deal with it too
muffin222
Enlightened
- Mar 31, 2020
- 1,188
Are you perhaps intending to CTB by being eaten, because that avatar looks, well, tempting......
Right?! Her eyes are practically enticing you to come take a bite, despite how cute she is
Yes, a sort of "ahh how cute" [ gulp ]Right?! Her eyes are practically enticing you to come take a bite, despite how cute she is
