dont turn on social media until youre done all your work: for me around 7:00pm+ . (reading titles and thumbnails made by people is socially addicting as a form of communication and its a task and decision that youll do thousands of times that will exhaust your brain)
get enough sunlight, exercise, have a healthy diet, yeah easier said than done.
and lastly, be socially engaged. which is a lot easier said than done as well. isolation fucks up the brain, having a healthy social life is one of the things we cant ignore as we are social creatures. (you dont need a lot of friends, just enough.)
and many other things im just not aware about.
"why study something youll forget anyway" ,something that changed my mentality towards studying is this. you dont study to remember something with objective photographic memory, you study something so you can re-remember something much faster. if you study to understand math for instance, initial learning may take 1000 hours for algebra say, but refreshing takes a lot faster, maybe an hour or so or less , especially if you broke down everything and articulated deeply within your own understanding, youre just refiring neuropathways you built.
I'm from Indonesia, and I can relate too. This is why I'm a loser. I'm basically just a no-good, especially in today's society of 'hustle culture', 'flexing', where everybody is so busy with work, business, careers, being 'productive', & all those things. Having an existential depression for a long time, even still until now (mostly due to cosmic & existential nihilism), I can't find any motivation to do anything at all, even my hobby/passion of music (as I'm a musician). My constant 'reality .vs. imagination' deeply existential dilemma pondering also just only make it worse. I feel that reality is just so boring, mundane, very limiting/limited, ridiculous, absurd, & depressing, and will never be able to match up to the wildest imaginations. I don't know. I'm tired, just very tired of everything. I wish I could just disappear.
"i will never be able to match up with the wildest imaginations" that, and other peoples subjective tastes. everyone was raving about the chainsaw man movie, and i saw it and think its shit.
if you're a philosophical pessimist and very nihilistic like myself, then , "narrative is dead" , so all "art" is, is communicating material interactions, events or circumstances to form a narrative so you can masturbate the most significant sexual organ in the whole body, your brain.
but besides that, if you really want to create art, you dont need validation from others.
