Water-Lily
Enlightened
- Dec 26, 2020
- 1,182
All he said was one thing. Just one fucking thing. "Just be more persistent". That's it. It wasn't anything to get angry over. But I did. I held grudge against him the whole day. To wish I kept bringing up the issue and he ended with "Jess your being sensitive". And I went into my room, slammed my door, and started crying.
This fucking disorder fucks with everything. I cannot do this anymore. I'm tired of going crazy and flipping out like this over small shit. I could have even said how I felt differently. But now I shut down like I always do
This is why I can't have friends. This is why I can't have anyone. Cause the min I feel bad I'll shut down and ruin things
I think from here on I need to make an investment to get SN. Its time I killed myself before creating any more damage. It's better this way
This fucking disorder fucks with everything. I cannot do this anymore. I'm tired of going crazy and flipping out like this over small shit. I could have even said how I felt differently. But now I shut down like I always do
This is why I can't have friends. This is why I can't have anyone. Cause the min I feel bad I'll shut down and ruin things
I think from here on I need to make an investment to get SN. Its time I killed myself before creating any more damage. It's better this way