grendel4578
following the freezing moon
- May 13, 2023
- 77
nothing makes me happy anymore, not even spending time with my significant other, though she's over 5,000 miles away and it's an online relationship. i also really just don't wanna do anything anymore but i guess i kind of have to just to get a painless method by working to get money. so far the only free methods i can think of would be slitting throat and wrists, attempting to drown myself in the bathtub, or starvation/dehydration. all of those sound painful and may not succeed (except starvation/dehydration ofc, which would be 100% chance but be painful) and if i fail i'd probably be involuntarily committed and also taken to a hospital, which would make me ineligible to purchase a firearm and would make purchasing sodium nitrite seem suspicious probably. there's also jumping but someone would probably stop me or i'd survive and end up being paralyzed... i don't know what to do. i have no money, obv cant get a gun or buy sn or anything to overdose on rn. :((( guess im just venting