Story I can't fail

[MsMaudlin]

As the time gets closer, I realise that if I actually fail to die, my life will change forever.
I think social services would be involved with my children, my family would hate me even more.
I'm going to be using SN, I absolutely cannot fail!

 

[MoreThanAFeeling]

I too have only one chance to succeed with my suicide attempt. I cannot fail! Otherwise I will lose my freedom.

I wish you best of luck MsMaudlin.

 

[MsMaudlin]

I too have only one chance to succeed with my suicide attempt. I cannot fail! Otherwise I will lose my freedom.

I wish you best of luck MsMaudlin.

Which method are you using if you don't mind me asking?

❤

 

[MoreThanAFeeling]

Of course you can, MsMaudlin.
The exit bag shall be the method to end my existence. But I do worry about failing. Therefore, I strongly consider jumping of a bridge :/
I really can't fail!

 

[MsMaudlin]

Of course you can, MsMaudlin.
The exit bag shall be the method to end my existence. But I do worry about failing. Therefore, I strongly consider jumping of a bridge :/
I really can't fail!

You could jump off a bridge whilst using the Exit Bag!
Dark sense of humour ❤

 

[MoreThanAFeeling]

Thank you for making me smile. Your dark sense of humor is very much appreciated.

 

[setmefree]

I I am a bit afraid of SN, Will it hurt?

 

[MsMaudlin]

I I am a bit afraid of SN, Will it hurt?

I don't think it will hurt so much, maybe feel uncomfortable for a short period.
You can take some painkillers too to hopefully help.

But whats a few minutes of discomfort compared to a life time of mental and physical agony?

❤

 

[Ghost2211]

I too only have one chance. I know with SN and careful planning we will succeed :)

 

[Fragile]

same here, failing is not an option for me.

that's why i'm taking so long with the planing and preparations, the risk is far too great and my life is bad enough already, i can't imagine making it even worse with the aftermath of a failed attempt, not again.

 

[pthnrdnojvsc]

I don't think it will hurt so much, maybe feel uncomfortable for a short period.
You can take some painkillers too to hopefully help.

But whats a few minutes of discomfort compared to a life time of mental and physical agony?

❤

Excellent point . I agree: "But whats a few minutes of discomfort compared to a life time of mental and physical agony?"
I also can't fail.

I don't think there is that much pain in SN. But if i want to stop all pain wouldn't taking the most powerful pain killer
fentanyl remove all chance of pain (Take SN then immediately Fentanyl).

same here, failing is not an option for me.

that's why i'm taking so long with the planing and preparations, the risk is far too great and my life is bad enough already, i can't imagine making it even worse with the aftermath of a failed attempt, not again.

Yes planning and prepration are key. Also practice is .
The Founder of Amazon said "ideas are easy execution is everything".
I think planning ,preparation, practice, visualization , testing and execution are key.
I need to get to 98% plus certaintity that i will suceed in my plan to suicide.

 

[setmefree]

I don't think it will hurt so much, maybe feel uncomfortable for a short period.
You can take some painkillers too to hopefully help.

But whats a few minutes of discomfort compared to a life time of mental and physical agony?

❤

thats true.. I try with diazepam, digoxin and morphium mixture

 

[LMLN]

Failure is a terrible thing. I failed before! I will take my SN far in the woods with no phone. Just to be sure. A delayed email will go out later disclosing my location.

 

[Cutepoison]

Failure is a terrible thing. I failed before! I will take my SN far in the woods with no phone. Just to be sure. A delayed email will go out later disclosing my location.

Did you fail using sn?

 

[helfire]

I'm SO afraid of failing too. Because if I do I'll lose the little I still have left.

 

[LMLN]

Did you fail using sn?

No, I failed with a really unreliable method. Before I researched well.

 

[voyager]

Yes. Technically I suppose I could fail if I don't end up a vegetable some way. But going on record, being ground to dust by the system, possibly have it out of my hands in future? No, thanks. Pro-lifing mentality pushing the buttons there, ironic.

What's more, when I leave this place I really do want that to be it. Failing must be so depressing when one really wants to go and is prepared to never see this place again, only to wake up here again. Good God.

Only thing that bothers me, SN is not my first choice. Have faith in it, but ideally I'm thinking handgun+noose, double tap.

 

[BlackCatTalk]

I understand that feeling perfectly, yesterday I talked about it in the chat.
I felt insecure about being so careful and the more I read, I think it is more scary to fail or cower me at the moment (if my SI comes out) I know that I am sure to leave every day more but my worst fear is to fail because if I do things they could get very bad.....I could lose everything.....

I made a schedule and I have been investigating the SN method, I even thought about SA but I ended up choosing SN, I think I'm ready for the pain but not to fail and somehow it makes me glad to know that I'm not the only one with those fears, please if you feel very anxious,send a PM, eel free to speak with me, im in the same hole of uncertainty.

 

[dioxide]

SN is not a fail proof method, it has 70% of success rate and 30% failure, as reported by PPH

 

[BlackCatTalk]

SN is not a fail proof method, it has 70% of success rate and 30% failure, as reported by PPH

Owww Thanks a lot

 

[voyager]

SN is not a fail proof method, it has 70% of success rate and 30% failure, as reported by PPH

You don't happen to know how these 30% come together, do you? I mean of course if the failures can be attributed to tolerating the effect or something other than being found etc.

 

[LMLN]

You don't happen to know how these 30% come together, do you? I mean of course if the failures can be attributed to tolerating the effect or something other than being found etc.

I think if the previous poster was talking about the reliability rating of 7 out of 10...that's not a percentage. I think it's just a rating they've came up with for comparison. They rated it lower because they had only 10 or so observed cases of SN deaths.

 

[dioxide]

You don't happen to know how these 30% come together, do you? I mean of course if the failures can be attributed to tolerating the effect or something other than being found etc.

1) Expiration of the chemical
2) Oxygen converted nano2 to nano3
3) Vomit
4) Tolerance to nitrite (we are eating nitrite into meat since birth)
5) Bad dosage administration due to weight or overweight
6) Being discovered and driven to emergency
7) Unbearable pain, so calling emergency
8) Chemical scam (they sent any different chemical or SN lower than 99%)
9) Some people have special immune system that may recover very quickly by poison

This are the first 9 reason that come to my mind..

 

[voyager]

Thanks for the info you two.

 

[AlreadyGone]

I totally agree. If I make an attempt, I will have to be certain or at least try my hardest to succeed. I absolutely cannot wake up in a hospital bed or something.