Venting I cant do this anymore but i cant die yet

[Ameya]

I really want to die. I see no future. Everything is so fucking apathetic and lonely. I keep meeting people only to be ditched a year later. Maybe I am the problem. I have sought out treatment before only to be send on my marry way. I dropped out of school. I couldn't find or hold a job. I have no joy anymore. I kept failing many attempts. I still linger on this site after years and years. I am so tired. I can't die yet. I made a promise to help someone. But I don't know how fucking long I can keep it together honestly.
I lost all online spaces I felt comfortable with aswell. Fuck this shit

 

[brokeandbroken]

I really want to die. I see no future. Everything is so fucking apathetic and lonely. I keep meeting people only to be ditched a year later. Maybe I am the problem. I have sought out treatment before only to be send on my marry way. I dropped out of school. I couldn't find or hold a job. I have no joy anymore. I kept failing many attempts. I still linger on this site after years and years. I am so tired. I can't die yet. I made a promise to help someone. But I don't know how fucking long I can keep it together honestly.
I lost all online spaces I felt comfortable with aswell. Fuck this shit

Yeah that sounds similar to my situation. It sucks a lot.