i cant do sh

[__overlord_00]

I always wanted to cut myself, there's not much in this...I can't cut myself like i thought I could...
sometimes I really want to but then I can't because the blade makes me pause and i just never pick up after that...i just let it go.
instead I use a metal piece to cut myself...
all superficial cuts, no blood at all. I want to see myself bleed but i can't because it's fear? or could be something...I dunno.

help on this please?

 

[Zura]

thats a good thing there is nothing wrong with hesitating to cause yourself harm
the people who do sh the huge majority of them try to quit it for good themselves and i hope they succeed
its your body naturals response to try to stop you from causing it harm

 

[ugulamugula]

I also can´t cut myself. But when i have breakdowns i just punch myself in the Face. I punch myself so hard that i get dents and shit in my face lol. I guess if you´re really fucked up or some shit you just ignore your Brain and hurt yourself. Im not telling you to hurt yourself, but it will just happen, maybe not through cutting yourself but mybe through punching, burning etc.

 

[doener11]

You kinda just have to be in a trance when you do it. You can't think too deeply otherwise it's just not going to work, bc instincts are an incredibly strong feeling. It is natural to want to restrain yourself from hurting yourself. You can either just use a sharper knife so you don't have to do as much mental convincing, or force yourself, both work just as well. I suffer from this now as well, and I can do only 2 cuts at once now, but my will to do it has dropped a lot over the years.
If you want to quit or decline in sh, having fear is a big help in doing that <3

 

[charlavail]

hey, if you can't do it count yourself "lucky". it's an addiction i wish I didn't have. i have the "tools" to deal with my high emotional moments but the thing that works for me is cutting. my thigh is covered in scars, which i mean i don't really care about but it's a slippery slope. i was clean for ove 15 years before relapsing. trust me, you don't want to get into this

 

[Aplev]

It was really hard for me too. It's not an addiction for me but... I kinda feel you. Like... I'm not saying this is you, but maybe it sort of is an addiction for me? I don't do it super often but I hate it when I want to and I can't. Last time was surprisingly easy though, and was probably one of my strongest cuts although in intensity, not in quantity (it was just one cut, but I don't think any of my previous left as much blood nor hurt as much). Right now I feel like I just can't though, and I know this is probably an insult to people who wish they didn't cut themselves but... I really really hate it when I don't sh for a long time. Yet, at the same time, I realize I add more pain to myself... and maybe that's what kinda stops me. Deep inside, I still wish I did. I don't get those 'that was such a good thing that I didn't sh' kind of feelings.

There's other ways like some people been mentioning, too. In fact, I wasn't really aware of it but I sh'ed even before I cut myself. Something I've done multiple times is use my fingernails to cause scars on my face. Made it obvious, but nobody really cared (I'm not joking btw, that's the kind of environment where it happened, and as an adult not much people see me other than the people in the street, and the people who did see it are so ignorant they thought it was just one more wound like... whatever).

It's not really an advice... but more like a 'I feel similar' kind of thing.

 

[ariebell]

Yeah, you're not alone in that. Sometimes I have really strong panic attacks and I feel like sh would really help me calm down. It would also be a better option than trying to hang myself without any preparation, I guess, but I'm simply too cowardly to cut myself...