Venting I can't do my job anymore but i still need money

[mrnamoshi]

Right now i'm working as software engineer and my mental state really worse because i have BPD and other mental illness. I barely able to stay in front of my laptop for long time.

I just don't want to do anything and i also always sad and not productive. I don't know what to do because i still need money but my boss always angry because my performance really really bad and slow.

Honestly i don't want anything, why should i do this every day when all my mind is filled with negative thinking and suicidal thought.

 

[Nikitatos]

Join the club. You might be able to qualify for disability if you have a documented illness that is preventing you from working.

Find a new job if you're boss is intolerable. Your skills sound like they're in demand. Maybe you could do it part-time or start your own company (freelance).

 

[MatrixPrisoner]

Have you tried Adderall?

 

[mrnamoshi]

Join the club. You might be able to qualify for disability if you have a documented illness that is preventing you from working.

unfortunately there's no such thing in my country. they don't care about mental health. I need money because i paid myself for the medication for my mental illness.

Find a new job if you're boss is intolerable. Your skills sound like they're in demand. Maybe you could do it part-time or start your own company (freelance).

yeah i'm trying to get a new job but it's hard with my mental state like this, i also tried freelancing but it's hard to get client or project.

Have you tried Adderall?

No, because i'm not diagnosed with ADHD

 

[needthebus]

i know the feeling, it's awful feeling like you need to work when you feel terrible

 

[mrnamoshi]

i know the feeling, it's awful feeling like you need to work when you feel terrible

Yeah it suck

 

[DefinitelyReady]

Right now i'm working as software engineer and my mental state really worse because i have BPD and other mental illness. I barely able to stay in front of my laptop for long time.

I just don't want to do anything and i also always sad and not productive. I don't know what to do because i still need money but my boss always angry because my performance really really bad and slow.

Honestly i don't want anything, why should i do this every day when all my mind is filled with negative thinking and suicidal thought.

Can you apply for disability? A few of my therapists have. Might be temporary. Might not. Might look into it.

 

[mrnamoshi]

Can you apply for disability? A few of my therapists have. Might be temporary. Might not. Might look into it.

i can't. i live at one of SEA country where the goverment don't give a fuck about people with mental illness

 

[babyharpseal]

im sorry dude thats so awful. i know how u feel. i dont have advice but i hope u can find a solution. if ur mental health is something that could get better with treatment, maybe get an easier job while you recover?