WrongGuy47
Member
- Dec 21, 2020
- 41
I fucking had everything today. I bought the rope, I went to the forest, I was fucking alone there, no fucking chance of failure or interruption, I fucking just couldn't hang myself.
I had told myself 30 minutes of pain better than years of misery, potential chance of health going worse, having to see my closed ones suffer, having to deal with work and all the shit. But I still fucking couldn't do it.
I fucking hate myself. It's been 5 fucking years since I have been attempting. I had thought hanging myself in forest would be the perfect way to go, I had fantasized about it all these years, but when I had the actual opportunity to go through it I fucking couldn't.
Someone fucking kill me please. Why does this has to be this hard.
I had even fucking left the note, I can't believe myself how I could not do it. What the hell is wrong with me. All I want is to be dead and I still couldn't do it, what the hell. I hate this shit.
I had told myself 30 minutes of pain better than years of misery, potential chance of health going worse, having to see my closed ones suffer, having to deal with work and all the shit. But I still fucking couldn't do it.
I fucking hate myself. It's been 5 fucking years since I have been attempting. I had thought hanging myself in forest would be the perfect way to go, I had fantasized about it all these years, but when I had the actual opportunity to go through it I fucking couldn't.
Someone fucking kill me please. Why does this has to be this hard.
I had even fucking left the note, I can't believe myself how I could not do it. What the hell is wrong with me. All I want is to be dead and I still couldn't do it, what the hell. I hate this shit.