I can’t be the only one?

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I hate the way people think that therapy and coping mechanisms are a fix for everyone and if it isn't it's the persons fault.

ffs I'm trying it's not like I want to continue suffering and being miserable. Coping mechanisms that I've learned online and from therapist either don't help at all, don't help anywhere close to enough, and or arnt realistic when anxious.

I've also been trying my hand at meds with my doctor who is super nice about everything. I tried fluoxetine and it had the opposite effect causing my shit to get worse. Then I was put on Lexapro, and hydroxyzine which helped a little bit. So stayed on that and have been increasing the dosage but stopped as it hasn't been improving results and am just staying at 20mg lexapro and 25mg hydroxyzine.

Anxiety didn't improve and got worse so he added buspirone and then Odansetron to try to help my nausea symptoms.

Ended up increasing buspirone from 5mg to 10mg. Now going to be increasing it again.

Recently had to go to a funeral and wasn't going to be able too as I was just a panicked and anxious mess so he prescribed me lorazepam .5mg and when I took that to go to the funeral it actually helped. But I can't take it daily or even every other day or weekly. It's only for things where I really have to do it and wouldn't be able to do it otherwise (big events).

So I'm stuck with coping mechanisms not helping, my new therapist I'm trying sucks so I'm having to start the search again (1 month minimum to get into a new therapist) so no therapist, and meds that arnt helping enough.

ffs. Then people are like Ohh do therapy that'll help. Have you tried meds and therapy? Oh you must not be doing something right or resisting.

like -.-

 

[Isadeth]

Currently I'm in therapy and was prescribed medication. I don't take my medication because it was making me worse. I started smoking pot and it improved my mood more than the medication. Plus it helps create an appetite so I don't restrict and I can stay in recovery with my anorexia. My therapist told me last Thursday that she's quitting. My last therapist didn't even say goodbye. I was upset enough to confront him on Facebook lol but he was my therapist for 3 years. I started seeing him after I quit my trial run as a lab rat for a university teaching new doctors and therapists... which they recorded and had observations behind a two way mirror... it was really uncomfortable.

Anyway, I've decided I'm done with therapy for now. I'm tired of telling my life story to people that really don't do much. I can find self help worksheets on my own. I've had a therapist since 1999. Probably roughly 12-15 in total. I've lost track.

I've also decided I'm going to try micro dosing mushrooms in the hopes it can help.

If you can't trust talking to your therapist, nothing is going to be gained from it. I've had therapists that were pointless. I've had fantastic therapists. Sadly they all leave eventually.

Peer support might be a better option for you. ♡ at least you know they've been through some shit too. You can talk more freely.

I hope you find someone that helps ♡

 

[WasGehtnAb?]

If there would be a gold standard depression or anxiety would be like a broken leg. Annoying for the patient but in the end always over after some months.

I don't think therapists do think like that. Alone the decision if the therapist is male or female is always different for the patient.

And that's the point, even they CANNOT know the perfect way. So they relate on studies because they are academics.
So method 1 works with 53% of all clients. So they try it and hope that it will help you too. After some time they see: Didn't work.
Try method 2 and so on.

Not the perfect mechanism but the best existing so far. It's not like you go there and then you get a diagnosis and then a therapy. It's more complicated.

 

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And that's the point, even they CANNOT know the perfect way.

this is why i believe recovery is a 50/50, you have to communicate with them so they at least know where to look and arent just throwing random meds/therapies at you

 

[Isadeth]

You also might request a genetic test for psych medications. It could help eliminate a majority of the trial and error. I did and it was amazing to visually see in black and white that I wasn't crazy for the medications not working or making me worse. They weren't genetically compatible for my needs. Something else to think about.

Also, regarding peer support if you go that route, there usually isn't a waiting list to talk with one. And they can call and check in periodically if you need. Plus you have their number usually too if things start to get real. Think of it like a sponsor for AA. People tend to listen to advice from those that have been through the same things as them. Same thing. ♡

 

[WasGehtnAb?]

this is why i believe recovery is a 50/50, you have to communicate with them so they at least know where to look and arent just throwing random meds/therapies at you

I never studied psychology but a lot of my friends did and work as therapists. The methods 1 has never ever even a 50% chance by start.
30% is much and then you have to try with experience. Meds? Other method? Other therapist?

Healing broken bones is easy because all humans have the same bones but not the same experiences and mind.

If a therapists doesn't fit for the patient... bad but happens. Everyone understands. But no therapist wants you to have the worst therapy.
It's not an easy job and also the job of the patient.

You can tell them lies for example and they have to believe you. But then don't expect a recovery soon...

 

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Annoying for the patient but in the end always over after some months.

Yeh no. I've been suffering from anxiety for years definitely not something that always ends after a few months. I also know multiple people on this forum who've also been suffering from anxiety for years. Same with people on other forums/places. So that's just not true.

You also might request a genetic test for psych medications. It could help eliminate a majority of the trial and error. I did and it was amazing to visually see in black and white that I wasn't crazy for the medications not working or making me worse. They weren't genetically compatible for my needs. Something else to think about.

Also, regarding peer support if you go that route, there usually isn't a waiting list to talk with one. And they can call and check in periodically if you need. Plus you have their number usually too if things start to get real. Think of it like a sponsor for AA. People tend to listen to advice from those that have been through the same things as them. Same thing. ♡

Yeh I have to wait for the genetic testing my doctor said as he wants to try a few more things and it takes time to request or something he said. But I'm going to do it when I can.

 

[WasGehtnAb?]

Yeh no. I've been suffering from anxiety for years definitely not something that always ends after a few months. I also know multiple people on this forum who've also been suffering from anxiety for years. Same with people on other forums/places. So that's just not true.

English is not my native language. But this was not my point but the opposite.

Broken bones are easy.
Anxiety is not easy at all.

 

[Isadeth]

Yeh I have to wait for the genetic testing my doctor said as he wants to try a few more things and it takes time to request or something he said. But I'm going to do it when I can.

You can also have your primary, if you have one, write orders for one and skip waiting for your psych doctor then just have the results faxed to him.

 

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English is not my native language. But this was not my point but the opposite.

Broken bones are easy.
Anxiety is not easy at all.

Ahh okay I probably misunderstood I don't sleep much bc insomnia very tired haha. And your English is good :)

 

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Anxiety is the pits. At one stage I was getting 7 panic attacks a day. Now I get a panic attack every few days or so. Is the buspirone not helping at all? I can hardly take anything for my anxiety due to side-effects of the medications and can't take benzos every day because tolerance develops quickly and they therefore lose effectiveness. Hugs.

 

[Nymph]

Yeah, you can try all of the stuff and still not be okay. My parents keep telling me that to improve my situation I have to work for it and try hard...bitch do you know what depression is? I don't wanna do fucking anything. I want to die. It's like they think we want to suffer and be like this, if I could just snap my fingers and be positive..wouldn't that be nice. I get that I'm inconvenient and a burden but it's not my fault that I was born

 

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Anxiety is the pits. At one stage I was getting 7 panic attacks a day. Now I get a panic attack every few days or so. Is the buspirone not helping at all? I can hardly take anything for my anxiety due to side-effects of the medications and can't take benzos every day because tolerance develops quickly and they therefore lose effectiveness. Hugs.

I'm actually getting my buspirone increased by 5mg starting tomorrow. Got off the phone with doctor recently. So hopefully that'll help but yeh it doesn't seem to be doing much.

 

[SanJunipero1]

All you can do is try, if you have and it doesn't work for you, move on. Find what does work regardless of others perceptions of it being the right course of action or not. People have mentioned support groups here and that's been the most helpful for me along with creative writing and acceptance of my fate.