I can't be around people that are not fucked up

[Mljonzy]

Is anyone else this way i am because being around normal functioning people makes me realise how bad the genetics i have are and how fucked up i am. Everyday at work it crushes me to see people with social skills like it's nothing when my anxiety i so bad i can barely say a word to anyone and physically i look fucked up but everyone else looks normal how is this fair i never had a chance from the start. I'm supposed to work tonight but phoned in saying my car needs to be fixed i just cannot face it tonight. I have to go back tommorrow night though it is so fucking unbearable. If there is any type of life after death we all deserve it to be good after all we suffer there is probably nothing though.

 

[whyidon'tknow]

How I feel around my highschool friends. They are all pretty much done school, have supportive families and other friends.

I still have no idea what I want and am impulsive as shit. I think they are starting to see what a fucking loser I am now. Eventually they'll leave and it'll make it so much easier to ctb

 

[Mljonzy]

How I feel around my highschool friends. They are all pretty much done school, have supportive families and other friends.

I still have no idea what I want and am impulsive as shit. I think they are starting to see what a fucking loser I am now. Eventually they'll leave and it'll make it so much easier to ctb

You are not a loser my friend if they leave they are not friends we all have each others back here.

 

[pleasethistime]

same

 

[DoomedxFromBirth]

This is why I literally have two friends lol. One is my tattoo artist. When I used to get tattooed by her the shop would be empty which is what I preferred cause other people make me uncomfortable especially loud people. They are actually annoying. When it used to just be me and her I used to called that day "Antisocial Sunday's"

 

[LogicalConclusion]

I've never had a life outside of mental illness so the only space I mask it is in the MMO I play. Have one friend from the guild that I talk to almost every morning and she's mentally ill, too, so she mostly gets it. (I would never bring up pro-choice in terms of ctb to her though) Other than that, my whole life pretty much revolves around my mental illnesses. If I ever am in situations where I have to pretend to be normal, I feel so fake and like everyone can see through it.

 

[Mljonzy]

I've never had a life outside of mental illness so the only space I mask it is in the MMO I play. Have one friend from the guild that I talk to almost every morning and she's mentally ill, too, so she mostly gets it. (I would never bring up pro-choice in terms of ctb to her though) Other than that, my whole life pretty much revolves around my mental illnesses. If I ever am in situations where I have to pretend to be normal, I feel so fake and like everyone can see through it.

I hear you i feel like everyone who seems normal is fake like they are hiding things and not being genuine. My spare time revolves around gaming even if i don't feel like playing. I used to pretend i was ok around people now i just don't care i know that no matter what happens i need to get out of this world before i'm 40 and i'm almost 30 so i have to do it within 10 years.

 

[DoomedxFromBirth]

What mmo?

 

[Darkhaven]

I have to endure it because i'm in college.
I just plug my earphones and listen to my music, while everyone around me just gossips and flirts or tells their friends what they ve been up to.
I couldn't give a single fuck about any all of that.
Almost every conversation topic that is appealing to normal people seems pointless and boring to me.

 

[not_a_robot]

lol, there are no people who are not fucked up.
If you meet someone and you think they aren't fucked up, that's your own insecurity blinding you to their flaws.
They're all fucked up.
All of them.
Nobody escapes the damage.

 

[inconsequential]

I surround myself with people who are the same type/level of fucked up as me. No judgement to be found! It's quite nice.

Everyone is fucked in their own way, but man, some crazy just doesn't mesh with mine.

 

[Slenderman]

It honestly blows my mind how people are out there not wanting to die every single day, not having completely random panic attacks, no intrusive thoughts, no nothing. Me, I can not get along with those people it's just to much for me to even begin to process.

 

[KadathianStr1d3r]

I wish I could hang out with people that are as crazy as me but not too crazy. But I will admit I do miss my genuine old stoner friends, they never said no to a good blunt!

 

[BridgeJumper]

Thats precisely the reason why I only have fucked up friends I met in psych wards, various communities for the mentally ill, and facebook suicide help groups.

 

[felix987671]

I prefer spending time with people that are not professionally successful. My two friends that are successful cannot understand me being chronically depressed. They always just recommend me sports.
Right now I am in a psychiatric hospital. The staff is mostly friendly. I tell them that the medical and psychological program doesn´t work for me and they don´t care. I cannot speak about being suicidal or they will keep me there. But I can say I will go to Switzerland and die with Dignitas. They cant keep me for that. Then they get angry and treat me badly. So I wont talk about that either. I hate them for being so ignorant.
There is one other patient that I like. But she is hopeful to recover, senses that I am screwed and avoids me.

I've never had a life outside of mental illness so the only space I mask it is in the MMO I play. Have one friend from the guild that I talk to almost every morning and she's mentally ill, too, so she mostly gets it. (I would never bring up pro-choice in terms of ctb to her though) Other than that, my whole life pretty much revolves around my mental illnesses. If I ever am in situations where I have to pretend to be normal, I feel so fake and like everyone can see through it.

I feel sorry for you.

 

[azucaramargo]

Is anyone else this way i am because being around normal functioning people makes me realise how bad the genetics i have are and how fucked up i am. Everyday at work it crushes me to see people with social skills like it's nothing when my anxiety i so bad i can barely say a word to anyone and physically i look fucked up but everyone else looks normal how is this fair i never had a chance from the start. I'm supposed to work tonight but phoned in saying my car needs to be fixed i just cannot face it tonight. I have to go back tomorrow night though it is so fucking unbearable. If there is any type of life after death we all deserve it to be good after all we suffer there is probably nothing though.

Hi, Mljonzy, I feel the same way. When I'm in an environment in which mental illness is a non-issue (i.e., no one seems to have it, no one talks about it, no one seems to know anyone who does have it), I feel isolated and alone. I don't like being in situations in which mental health is not addressed/talked about, or in situations in which if I feel it's taboo to talk about mental health. I feel you. Since you work at night, I'm wondering if you work in the food and beverage industry..

 

[Mljonzy]

Hi, Mljonzy, I feel the same way. When I'm in an environment in which mental illness is a non-issue (i.e., no one seems to have it, no one talks about it, no one seems to know anyone who does have it), I feel isolated and alone. I don't like being in situations in which mental health is not addressed/talked about, or in situations in which if I feel it's taboo to talk about mental health. I feel you. Since you work at night, I'm wondering if you work in the food and beverage industry..

Work in a big supermarket not the best job but pay is decent it is a very lonely job though. Whilst i'm there i feel confused like i'm thrown in a world i don't belong.

 

[ExitTheDay]

I hate being around normal functioning people because I feel like they judge me behind my back for not living up to their standards of being a slave to the system (having a "normal" job, etc)

 

[Ramirez]

I used to train alot in my matarial arts gym the last few years and at the end alot of ppl actually really like me just for being kinda good at what i was doing and for being really in shape. But it felt so rediculous to me because i would always think 'if you would know how fucked up I am'. But I never talk about anything too private so it was hard to connect to others

 

[Orin]

The problem with "normal" people is they have poor communication skills. They lack empathy and they think too highly of themselves. They're preoccupied with where they are on the totem pole of society and look down on the ones they deem as inferior. If someone is fucked up, i think it's them.