I can't accept that my life is over.

[throwaway123]

I just can't be at peace with myself. Help. What do I do?


Please don't make the pathetic assumption to think that this is a cry for help. It is not. I am simply incapable of giving up and letting the people who destroyed my life walk away without adequate punishment.

There are factors outside of my control which have led to my life being over before it even really started. Nothing I can do to change it. I tried everything and I thought of everything.
I just need to make myself ready to die. Somehow in some way. Maybe mental preperation or whatever works.

P.S.: Pro-lifers fuck off!

 

[123monday123]

I really feel for you ❤
I am in a similiar situation :)

 

[creationisdeath]

I fully understand.. and it's terrible. Life is a gamble. Nobody chooses what they're born into.

The whole "selfmade" fallacy is just propaganda.

Death is the great equalizer. Everyone will die.

 

[Idorus]

De hele "selfmade" denkfout is gewoon propaganda

Thumbs Up.

@Oopz, I meant like this ;)

The whole "selfmade" fallacy is just propaganda

Thumbs up!

 

[firedragon135]

Hey throwaway add mich mal bei Discord unter Shanks#6163, ich kann ja weder auf meine Profilwand posten noch dir antworten.

 

[2 be or not]

I just can't be at peace with myself. Help. What do I do?

I can relate and have heard that daily meditation can help with being at peace with self, others and all that is. There is something that rings ironically true about the answer(s) to our deepest needs being accessible and near but not realized.

My problem is my inability to practice daily. It's something so simple yet difficult to achieve.

I hope you are able find peace @throwaway123

 

[throwaway123]

I can relate and have heard that daily meditation can help with being at peace with self, others and all that is. There is something that rings ironically true about the answer(s) to our deepest needs being accessible and near but not realized.

My problem is my inability to practice daily. It's something so simple yet difficult to achieve.

I hope you are able find peace @throwaway123

Same here. I want to meditate but I just can't do it. It sounds so easy but is harder than most people realize.

 

[throwaway123]

Hey throwaway add mich mal bei Discord unter Shanks#6163, ich kann ja weder auf meine Profilwand posten noch dir antworten.

Ich kann Discord nicht benutzen. Die verlangen meine Handynummer. Musst warten bis ich dich anschreiben kann.

 

[Hopeless_soul]

Please don't make the pathetic assumption to think that this is a cry for help. It is not. I am simply incapable of giving up and letting the people who destroyed my life walk away without adequate punishment.

I understand that feeling.

Hope you can achieve peace.

 

[RememberWhatUCameFor]

what kind problems do you have bro?

physically, psychological?


are they really unhandable?

 

[bigj75]

There is deep understating in truth and nature. You know the truth and what you must do.

 

[Final Escape]

Same here. I want to meditate but I just can't do it. It sounds so easy but is harder than most people realize.

The other day I meditated. I sat on floor on my yoga mat but I just sit comfortably, not in the pose, and back propped against something, eyes closed. Put headphones in and picked some soft meditation music. Slow deep breath in through nose, hold a few seconds as u can, slowly let out through mouth then repeat over and over for like half hour at least. 15 mins can help too. Anyway, I busted out crying it was weird. I guess this can happen. It's like I unscrewed a pressure valve or something lol! Not like bawling but I cried a bit. You're suppose to just let your thoughts just do what they want but it's suppose to be about being in present moment. Quiet, so u can hear your unconscious or see what your thoughts are doing. Doing this I believe can improve your brain function after daily doing over a couple weeks. I was doing it more regularly and it appeared to help me. Then I got lazy and went back to my old self. I felt it improved my frontal lobe function which is not the best functioning for me.

 

[throwaway123]

The other day I meditated. I sat on floor on my yoga mat. Put headphones in and picked some soft meditation music. Slow deep breath in through nose, hold, slowly let out through mouth then repeat over and over for like half hour at least? 15 mins can help too. Anyway, I busted out crying it was weird. I guess this can happen. It's like I unscrewed a pressure valve or something lol! Not like bawling but I cried a bit. You're suppose to just let your thoughts just do what they want but it's suppose to be about being in present moment. Quiet, so u can hear your unconscious or see what your thoughts are doing.

I have heard that you're supposed to do it that way but when I do that I just get angry at a lot of things. In fact I get so angry that I can't sit still. Maybe it's all the repressed anger that I feel coming up but there is also nothing I can do about it.

 

[Othermind]

There are factors outside of my control which have led to my life being over before it even really started. Nothing I can do to change it. I tried everything and I thought of everything.

Well, the scientific community has pretty much come to the conclusion (which a lot of people suspected was true for at least four hundred years) that free will does not exist. So yeah, your life, just like anyone else's, was over before it even started, if it makes you feel any better.

 

[TAW122]

Each person's situation is different and I don't believe that there is a set answer or way to prepare oneself. However, the bottom line is to find what works to get your mind ready for the situation that you are. Sometimes, it might be easier to focus on your plan to ctb more than focusing on getting back at people. I've had fantasies of getting revenge and what not, but ultimately, my ctb far outweighs that of trying to win a victory against my nemeses. I am not trying to sound a bit pro-lifey or trying to discourage you from what you are doing and ultimately, only you know what you need in your situation.

 

[Jai]

I just can't be at peace with myself. Help. What do I do?


Please don't make the pathetic assumption to think that this is a cry for help. It is not. I am simply incapable of giving up and letting the people who destroyed my life walk away without adequate punishment.

There are factors outside of my control which have led to my life being over before it even really started. Nothing I can do to change it. I tried everything and I thought of everything.
I just need to make myself ready to die. Somehow in some way. Maybe mental preperation or whatever works.

P.S.: Pro-lifers fuck off!

Good post I can't get over what other people did too and I've given up as well I can't believe how fucking difficult it is to kill yourself Godspeed in your path mate

 

[Final Escape]

I have heard that you're supposed to do it that way but when I do that I just get angry at a lot of things. In fact I get so angry that I can't sit still. Maybe it's all the repressed anger that I feel coming up but there is also nothing I can do about it.

Yes I've felt this and let it stop me from meditating. Well when u start out, only go as long as u can stand, and also the soothing soft music helps as well. Headphones. Distractions suck so u want to try to eliminate interruptions or ignore them. Maybe try to do it when u are more receptive and less tense. I would set timer on fone for like 30 mins. An hour is ideal but when u start out it's unrealistic to go an hour.

 

[lost_soul83]

I just can't be at peace with myself. Help. What do I do?


Please don't make the pathetic assumption to think that this is a cry for help. It is not. I am simply incapable of giving up and letting the people who destroyed my life walk away without adequate punishment.

There are factors outside of my control which have led to my life being over before it even really started. Nothing I can do to change it. I tried everything and I thought of everything.
I just need to make myself ready to die. Somehow in some way. Maybe mental preperation or whatever works.

P.S.: Pro-lifers fuck off!

Just imagine an all-enveloping peace washing over you. All the pain and grief of life is gone and you're actually happy! And if you believe in heaven, imagine going there and being in pure paradise! If you've suffered this much in your life, I don't think there's any way God would keep you out. Much love and peace to you :-)

 

[ParamitePie]

I was able to come up with a list of reasons why I wanted to die, and another of reasons why I should keep living. The reasons to die were all deeply personal, and the reasons to live revolved entirely around other people. It informed me that I had no reason to stay alive; I'm not a husband, I'm not a father, I have no dependents, and so I'm free to go at any time. There was nothing in my life to look forwards to, because I had no hopes, dreams or aspirations. Even then, it's been difficult to leap that hurdle, but at least I feel like nothing's binding me here now.

 

[Lara Francis]

Same here. I want to meditate but I just can't do it. It sounds so easy but is harder than most people realize.

Hugs to you throwaway
Have you tried any meditation apps ?
I find the "insight timer " app helpful sometimes.
It has lots of guided meditations which vary from a few minutes to an 60 min.
They focus on different areas too ie anxiety,sleep etc xx

 

[azucaramargo]

Ich kann Discord nicht benutzen. Die verlangen meine Handynummer. Musst warten bis ich dich anschreiben kann.

Throwaway123, you are German? So cool!

 

[Journeytoletgo]

It truly sucks that this is what it has come to however at least I'll be free from being compared, free from others exploitation, free from society, free from my past mistakes, free from depression and anxiety, free from no social future or romantic future, free from feeling ugly, free from my trauma from being bullied. I don't care anymore

 

[Superdeterminist]

Personally I think I can get over my life being over. Yes it definitely sucks. But I just want it to be OVER, you know? What sucks the most for me, is wanting it to end but being unable to end it.

 

[FuneralCry]

I don't think I really had much of a life in the first place. I just tell myself that everything is meaningless, we are all going to die anyway. So much can go wrong that is completely out of our control and that is what has happened to me. Death is freedom from all of it, and the only way. Therefore my problem is that I find it hard to ctb.

 

[PapaSuicide]

Hey man, if you need to get revenge or see the ones who hurt you get hurt, you have a reason to live, so your life isn't over yet!
It's not a peaceful path but it's a reason to live! I no longer have reasons and I'm at peace with it! I think only love could change my mind!

I hope you found your peace!

 

[Pigeonman]

same! wish i lived in the us so i could put a fucking bullet in my head