Nonno_Eek
I don't understand human behavior ♥
- Oct 21, 2024
- 13
A day ago, my aunt organized a reunion-type beach party. We joined, but my mom told them that we would be late because I have a morning class. When we finally drove to go there, we didn't expect that we had to drive a literal mountain to get there. Our vehicle isn't a car...
Around the middle of the road, my dad (I hate this man) started getting agitated. I don't really care, seeing him mad makes me happy. I was the only one who had a phone, so he started yelling at me to call my aunt. I don't really like getting yelled at, especially by him. I yelled back. Then he grabbed my face, and I felt his nails slicing my skin. I have never felt anger in my whole life that I want to hurt him. I don't care if my mom was there. I want to hurt him. Then my aunt finally picked up the phone so I stopped. I hate him so much.
I never shown this type of anger before. I usually simmer from the inside and just cry about it.
The whole reunion wasn't enjoyable because I was thinking of running away.
Today, he tried to ask me to get the batteries but I acted extremely brash about it. I threw the batteries and my mom confronted me about it. I hate when he gets protected. If only my mom knows but I won't tell her. I knew how of a weak willed she is. She will not stand up for me.
Anyway, I was planning to leave our place so I could be at peace again. I really have a hard time controlling my anger around him. I also hide a small knife next to me when sleeping.
A lot has happened since I last posted a thread, so...
But in summary: I returned to my parents' home so I could study much better in college, but my dad is being creepy again.
I won't forgive him. I always wished he die every single moment given.
I think going back to my aunt's will put me at peace, but it will put a strain on my studies.
Around the middle of the road, my dad (I hate this man) started getting agitated. I don't really care, seeing him mad makes me happy. I was the only one who had a phone, so he started yelling at me to call my aunt. I don't really like getting yelled at, especially by him. I yelled back. Then he grabbed my face, and I felt his nails slicing my skin. I have never felt anger in my whole life that I want to hurt him. I don't care if my mom was there. I want to hurt him. Then my aunt finally picked up the phone so I stopped. I hate him so much.
I never shown this type of anger before. I usually simmer from the inside and just cry about it.
The whole reunion wasn't enjoyable because I was thinking of running away.
Today, he tried to ask me to get the batteries but I acted extremely brash about it. I threw the batteries and my mom confronted me about it. I hate when he gets protected. If only my mom knows but I won't tell her. I knew how of a weak willed she is. She will not stand up for me.
Anyway, I was planning to leave our place so I could be at peace again. I really have a hard time controlling my anger around him. I also hide a small knife next to me when sleeping.
A lot has happened since I last posted a thread, so...
But in summary: I returned to my parents' home so I could study much better in college, but my dad is being creepy again. I won't forgive him. I always wished he die every single moment given.
I think going back to my aunt's will put me at peace, but it will put a strain on my studies.
