I can and I have to do better

[Soapie]

I see now that I go through some serious ebbs and flows in my depression. I swing from recovery mode to suicide mode really really often. I just keep realizing that like ... Everything I do when I'm recovering was really really helpful for me. I'm going through one of the toughest parts of my life right now but while I've been going through it I noticed this... Strength in me and like I really think it's such a positive force in my life. I think I need to listen to it more. Life is so fucking hard and scary but I'm also really strong!!! I can do the hard and the scary shit because I was put on this earth for no reason so I can do whatever I want !!!!! And I'm gonna choose to stay and I'm gonna choose to fight until I can't anymore. I don't know when that will be but for right now I have a life to live. I need to advocate for myself and find what makes me truly happy. I'm not gonna leave this world till I find it

 

[VoidDesirer22]

I see now that I go through some serious ebbs and flows in my depression. I swing from recovery mode to suicide mode really really often. I just keep realizing that like ... Everything I do when I'm recovering was really really helpful for me. I'm going through one of the toughest parts of my life right now but while I've been going through it I noticed this... Strength in me and like I really think it's such a positive force in my life. I think I need to listen to it more. Life is so fucking hard and scary but I'm also really strong!!! I can do the hard and the scary shit because I was put on this earth for no reason so I can do whatever I want !!!!! And I'm gonna choose to stay and I'm gonna choose to fight until I can't anymore. I don't know when that will be but for right now I have a life to live. I need to advocate for myself and find what makes me truly happy. I'm not gonna leave this world till I find it

Beautiful! I support your journey. Be kind to yourself.

 

[rationaltake]

That's amazing. Be happy.

 

[FuneralCry]

That is good to hear. I am pleased for you. I wish you the best.