I came to strange place and ended up alone

[DMTardcore]

So I guess here is where I'm OK to share this story.. I have been with a girl for 5 years and we have been through thick and thin together. Since we've been together it feels like I've crossed over into another plane of existence. All of a sudden telepathy and insight I never dreamed possible became reality. Now she doesn't want to be with me and I realize I don't want to be in this place alone. You can't unsee things once they have been seen. My birthday is 8 days away and I'm just enjoying what time I have left in this plane in the most normal fashion possible from an outside perspective so I don't have anyone try and stop me when I leave. I'm decidedly going full suspension hanging or partial with use of syncope to get the ball rolling. I have to go before my birthday as I've been told God gives us chances out every 9 Years and I'm in my 27th now. She commonly admits to things being different now but refuses to talk about it more clearly. No matter what I feel alone here because I only found this place of mind for her. I'm going to get some xanax or something similar to remove the tension before I go. I wish things could have been different but I've tried everything else.

 

[Jolene40]

You sound like you are overwhelmed with grief more than anything else.

 

[DMTardcore]

These things have been happening long before she left. Now I just don't know what to make of it all aside that I want out. I can't find the will to move forward in this strange place anymore.
All I know is the first is only a few days away. I'm waiting for the right opportunity to get away from everyone here where I stay so I know no one will follow me into the woods. I've already went off twice and was followed both times.. I'll have to set my noose ahead of time so that way I can sneak off while everyone is asleep.

You sound like you are overwhelmed with grief more than anything else.

Maybe. But like I already said. I'm in a different world than I used to be. I don't want this place without her in it. Its too late to just go back. So I'll just have to make an exit.

 

[JadedGray]

It's better to have loved and lost (so they say). It might be helpful to give yourself time to mourn the end of the relationship and not make such a rash decision. After all, once you've done it there's no coming back and you never know what could have been and who you might meet in the future or if there is room for reconciliation.

 

[DeathSaves]

Supernatural phenomena sorta haunt me as well. I haven't truly found a way out of this, though. I don't want to die, but i can't find a way to live...

 

[DMTardcore]

It's better to have loved and lost (so they say). It might be helpful to give yourself time to mourn the end of the relationship and not make such a rash decision. After all, once you've done it there's no coming back and you never know what could have been and who you might meet in the future or if there is room for reconciliation.

I made a promise to this girl that I would always be there for her. If I can't or she doesn't need me my purpose here is fulfilled. There has been so many experiences that quantify my experience as such and honestly I don't feel like I'm rushing into anything. Its just nice to vent somewhere before I roll out.

Supernatural phenomena sorta haunt me as well. I haven't truly found a way out of this, though. I don't want to die, but i can't find a way to live...

I only came to this "supernatural phenomena" because of her, for her.

 

[Soul]

Your thread title sounds like life itself. How did we get to this strange place, and why are we all alone here?
I hope you find what you need. Journey well.

 

[DMTardcore]

Your thread title sounds like life itself. How did we get to this strange place, and why are we all alone here?
I hope you find what you need. Journey well.

Yes in essence. We were all born alone and will die alone. Everything in between is what makes being with others so precious, wouldn't you agree?

Your thread title sounds like life itself. How did we get to this strange place, and why are we all alone here?
I hope you find what you need. Journey well.

Ah... The Dweller its self is truly alone. I've sat face to face with him and seen the look of one who is truly alone and refuse to bear that again if even only for a moment.

 

[JadedGray]

I made a promise to this girl that I would always be there for her. If I can't or she doesn't need me my purpose here is fulfilled. There has been so many experiences that quantify my experience as such and honestly I don't feel like I'm rushing into anything. Its just nice to vent somewhere before I roll out.


I only came to this "supernatural phenomena" because of her, for her.

Well peace be with you on your journey, then.