DrekSS
"I rather die than live under your control"
- Sep 3, 2022
- 22
I can't help myself, my whole life I've been different and that is alright I had mild signs of bipolarity and/or depression.
Been with numerous psychologists, and the first ones were of no help, in fact I believe they teared me appart more. Finally, when I started to show signs of suicidal tendency I went to a psychiatrist and I started taking SRIs, none of them worked because I wasn't diagnosed correctly.
What no one told me was that taking them does have consequences in mid and long term. My body makes up ressistance but still has dependency on this shit. I went to a psych ward, I had electrocunvulsive therapy. Now what do I got? A mess in my brain and I can't remember things straight now. In my new treatment I was feeling stable but I'm a living lie. The moment I tried to let the pills aside I found out that I'm literally worse than when I started, this meds make an alt version of me which I'm truly not.
Now I don't know what to do. I wish I had CTB'd when I had the balls. Now I feel like a fucking living ghost. I am alone, insane, and hopeless. All because I listened to the "get help"
I don't doubt that for some people the meds actually work. But some of us are getting fucked and turned into something we are not.
Been with numerous psychologists, and the first ones were of no help, in fact I believe they teared me appart more. Finally, when I started to show signs of suicidal tendency I went to a psychiatrist and I started taking SRIs, none of them worked because I wasn't diagnosed correctly.
What no one told me was that taking them does have consequences in mid and long term. My body makes up ressistance but still has dependency on this shit. I went to a psych ward, I had electrocunvulsive therapy. Now what do I got? A mess in my brain and I can't remember things straight now. In my new treatment I was feeling stable but I'm a living lie. The moment I tried to let the pills aside I found out that I'm literally worse than when I started, this meds make an alt version of me which I'm truly not.
Now I don't know what to do. I wish I had CTB'd when I had the balls. Now I feel like a fucking living ghost. I am alone, insane, and hopeless. All because I listened to the "get help"
I don't doubt that for some people the meds actually work. But some of us are getting fucked and turned into something we are not.