EmbraceOfTheVoid
Part Time NEET - Full Time Suicidal
- Mar 29, 2020
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I did take the meto, antacid, painkillers, and mixed the SN but couldn't get myself to do it. I know I will commit suicide eventually since it's inevitable for me but it isn't the right time now. I think I'll try to take advantage of the opportunity I've been given to try and have some good in life with a friend of mine if it's possible since I've never had any good in my life.
It seems like I was ctbing because I felt trapped due to my family coming back from vacation and have been sick of dealing with them. I find comfort in the idea of being able to leave whenever I want but it's the opposite when people are around that would FORCE me to live which gives me suicidal urges. It's funny in a way; people that want me to live against my will make me FAR more suicidal.
Anyways, sorry for the spectacle and the goodbye thread. I promise there will be a real one in the future when I do actually end my life.
It seems like I was ctbing because I felt trapped due to my family coming back from vacation and have been sick of dealing with them. I find comfort in the idea of being able to leave whenever I want but it's the opposite when people are around that would FORCE me to live which gives me suicidal urges. It's funny in a way; people that want me to live against my will make me FAR more suicidal.
Anyways, sorry for the spectacle and the goodbye thread. I promise there will be a real one in the future when I do actually end my life.