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bustboe
Liquid Boe
- Mar 10, 2023
- 40
i am new too this forum and wanted to introduce myself and the reasons i joined.
UK 21 M currently residing in supported accommodation i do not want to go into all the details on why i would like to ctb or looking for any preach-y nonsense about the beauty of life, I am simply here for advice.
I have no one in my life no friends no one to worry about catching me or endangering or too even miss me as i have systematically "burned all bridges" with all people who have made the mistake to enter my life(mother , father , friends and even my fostering family). Being free however does pose its advantages as i will have no one to stop or "save" me when i inevitably take the plunge this leads me to my main point
I hope i am not breaking any forum rules with this question.I will be receiving £150 in 4 days and in that time i would like advice a method of ctb i could get my hands on with my limited budget.I have attempting hanging multiple times and always stopped myself when i feel myself blacking out(despite being 110% this is the right decision) i am not opposed to hanging but maybe some advice on pharmaceuticals i can easily purchase(at a boots or local pharmacy etc) that may help knock me out so i can go out peacefully. Or just suggestions on ctb methods within my budget(couldnt afford or even get inert gas if i tried) as the benifits i get off the government is the only income i have - its not like i didnt try and work my last job abused me and payed scarily below minimum wage and told me to be happy for it because of the situation i am in.
again i wish too not break any rules here but being in the orwellian nightmare that is the uk its a real pain in the ass to source or find the right if any information.
and i wish peace and love too all who pass through.
UK 21 M currently residing in supported accommodation i do not want to go into all the details on why i would like to ctb or looking for any preach-y nonsense about the beauty of life, I am simply here for advice.
I have no one in my life no friends no one to worry about catching me or endangering or too even miss me as i have systematically "burned all bridges" with all people who have made the mistake to enter my life(mother , father , friends and even my fostering family). Being free however does pose its advantages as i will have no one to stop or "save" me when i inevitably take the plunge this leads me to my main point
I hope i am not breaking any forum rules with this question.I will be receiving £150 in 4 days and in that time i would like advice a method of ctb i could get my hands on with my limited budget.I have attempting hanging multiple times and always stopped myself when i feel myself blacking out(despite being 110% this is the right decision) i am not opposed to hanging but maybe some advice on pharmaceuticals i can easily purchase(at a boots or local pharmacy etc) that may help knock me out so i can go out peacefully. Or just suggestions on ctb methods within my budget(couldnt afford or even get inert gas if i tried) as the benifits i get off the government is the only income i have - its not like i didnt try and work my last job abused me and payed scarily below minimum wage and told me to be happy for it because of the situation i am in.
again i wish too not break any rules here but being in the orwellian nightmare that is the uk its a real pain in the ass to source or find the right if any information.
and i wish peace and love too all who pass through.