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I hate this "fighting sentiment" so much, especially if it comes from someone who is healthy. They have no idea how much you suffer with a severe chronic illness. I guess I would "fight" if there was anything to gain. But a chronic disease will just come back or find another way to torment you.
Can we start one. I am in the same position. Absolutely terrified. I just want to be gone but my head hurts so badly I can't comprehend how to fix an exit bag.
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What an eye-opening experience. I want to CTB because of chronic pain spinal disease and one of the major reasons is that people would never understand me. Chronic illness and especially chronic pain are notoriously hard for people to understand. Why is that?
i think most people are unable to put themselves in someone elses shoes, honestly i think it correlates with like self awareness, life experiences and like their (un)ability to understand a different perspective. idk something along those lines.
If u need to talk feel free to PM me. I understand. I wish I didn't. I wish u didn't have to suffer. I wish none of us had to suffer. It seems it's always the people who could have made the most difference in the world that God punishes.
Honestly, I'm always baffled how ignorant people are. They always imagine some acute pain. But they cannot grasp living in 24/7 severe constant pain for decades with literally no hope. Luckily we can all CTB.
Indeed... thank you very much.
Like I work in retail and when people want coupons they just expect me to automatically know what they want and how they want to use it. and if i try to explain to them that im not a mind reader and they need to tell me these things theyre just like "youll see when youll be my age". first of all i wont be your age ever cuz i rather commit kermitcide than live this pathetic life and second of all i wouldnt ever nag people if get older, cuz that shit is just plain annoying.
Great example. Maybe there is a simple reason behind this baffling lack of empathy: people cannot simply empathize with experiences they have never gone through. Empathy is localized.
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It's simple: They don't experience it. Before I got ill I couldn't comprehend it either. I only recognised really severe cases - like a young person who is about to die because of some horrible cancer. For a healthy person sickness and pain is temporary. Sure, you feel like hell for a week or two, you complain about the pain, but you know that it will get better soon.
Exactly like you! My symptoms are manageable, but it will get so much worse. I'm glad I've found someone who has exactly the same mindset.
Much love and strength to you, too! I always feel so sorry for other people with severe conditions like mine. I wouldn't wish it upon my worst enemy and it often seems to affect some really good people. Such a waste.
I try to enjoy the good things that are left. I don't want to leave too early but I sure as hell won't be tortured to death by my own body. Timing my exit is my final problem. I'm sorry that this also applies to you.
I'm most of all grateful for all those healthy years. There are some regrets, some things that I could have done differently, but I guess that everyone (including healthy people) have these thoughts. I used to have big dreams and wanted to achieve many things in my life - all these goals are now meaningless. You gain a new perspective on life and on what's really important. Without being healthy all the other things don't really matter.
I think it's a hard cope because admitting that things suck and are harder when you're sick makes it harder to convince yourself that it's worth it to be alive. I don't relate to disabled people who say it's better to be disabled. I just want to do things without thinking about how I'll do them or if I'll be able to do them. I want to live without being held back by my own body. I want to be and be reborn as I was when I was healthy. I felt like I could do anything, and I could. I did not live in constant anguish of when the next bad thing would happen to me. Guess I'm projecting. But this is no life
I think people, well I simply couldn't believe others could be in so much pain with all this medication we always hear about. Truth is the pain medication will only do so much, it becomes what level of pain can you tolerate? Chronic pain will make anyone want to ctb, it's difficult to wake up everyday and know you will be in pain..life is hard. I'm sorry you have to deal with this
I reached the point where it's no longer manageable. Drs yell at me. My mom won't help except to hand me an ice pack. I will be alone and homeless when she goes. I want to sleep I miss sleep. Sleep makes the pain worse. I have no escape.
Couldn't have said it better. Being healthy again is all I wish for. Sadly that will never happen.
