I am so scared.

[purpleorangegreen_]

Does anyone else get this feeling? The feeling that no matter how hard we work and enjoy life, it won't matter because everyone dies eventually?

Maybe it's better to CTB. I want to CTB.

I don't want to end up as some old person, just waiting for the end to come helplessly. No, I'd rather be dead before I can even see myself get old.

I just feel so scared.

I just want the end.

 

[lookingforsanctuary]

What scares you the most about death?

 

[CountOfTuscany]

Does anyone else get this feeling? The feeling that no matter how hard we work and enjoy life, it won't matter because everyone dies eventually?

Maybe it's better to CTB. I want to CTB.

I don't want to end up as some old person, just waiting for the end to come helplessly. No, I'd rather be dead before I can even see myself get old.

I just feel so scared.

I just want the end.

If you're able to live a life you enjoy long enough that you get old, who cares if it "matters"? You would have already won by that point. No need to be scared of such a remote situation!
Why do you want to die right now?

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence terrifies me personally, I think it's absurd to wish to exist in this nightmarish and chaotic world where there is unlimited potential to suffer. And existence really is so futile and meaningless, there's nothing to be gained by this process of slowly dying where everything will be forgotten about in death, all that is inevitable is even more suffering, loss and decay.

It truly disturbs me the thought of ageing and existence is just repulsive in general, the thought of very old age truly is something so hellish and all of this is why I find comfort in the thought of being permanently gone. To die solves all problems as it removes the ultimate source of all problems which is existence in itself, to me existence could never be a desirable state and I always see it as being preferable to not exist.

 

[redisblue]

I understand you. I hate thinking about the fact that everything I will have worked towards, and that everything I will have done, will have just been for nothing, no matter how much I've done. I don't want to wait for the end, for everything I've done to just be for nothing. I also hate the idea of growing old, especially on my own with no family or anybody that I love around me. Something I hate about this, is the fact that with growing old, I have to watch my family pass away, as I am one of the youngest in my family. This horrifies me, I know it will happen if I continue to live, but thinking about it makes me feel so scared. I don't understand why we were all brought to this world for us to suffer then eventually pass away. It doesn't make any sense to me, but it's scary.

 

[purpleorangegreen_]

What scares you the most about death?

Not knowing what happens after, mostly.

If you're able to live a life you enjoy long enough that you get old, who cares if it "matters"? You would have already won by that point. No need to be scared of such a remote situation!

Perhaps, but the point is that I don't wanna end up in a care home, waiting hopelessly. I don't want to be - Artificially alive. If that's my fate, it's cruel and I'd rather CTB before then.

 

[Challu]

Does anyone else get this feeling? The feeling that no matter how hard we work and enjoy life, it won't matter because everyone dies eventually?

Maybe it's better to CTB. I want to CTB.

I don't want to end up as some old person, just waiting for the end to come helplessly. No, I'd rather be dead before I can even see myself get old.

I just feel so scared.

I just want the end.

Same.

 

[stormztier]

Not knowing what happens after, mostly.

Perhaps, but the point is that I don't wanna end up in a care home, waiting hopelessly. I don't want to be - Artificially alive. If that's my fate, it's cruel and I'd rather CTB before then.

In my opinion growing old after your whole life is reliveing. You get to see your goals come true and know that your job is done and you can go peacefully. Whatever happens i hope you are happy.

 

[Inactivezzz]

I understand you. I hate thinking about the fact that everything I will have worked towards, and that everything I will have done, will have just been for nothing, no matter how much I've done. I don't want to wait for the end, for everything I've done to just be for nothing. I also hate the idea of growing old, especially on my own with no family or anybody that I love around me. Something I hate about this, is the fact that with growing old, I have to watch my family pass away, as I am one of the youngest in my family. This horrifies me, I know it will happen if I continue to live, but thinking about it makes me feel so scared. I don't understand why we were all brought to this world for us to suffer then eventually pass away. It doesn't make any sense to me, but it's scary.

Everything you just said...fucking yes. It almost makes me resentful because if I CTB, everyone will say that I let my family and parents down, but they all get to pass away from old age and leave me behind in the end (I'm the second youngest in the family, one year older than youngest so I understand where you're coming from) and it's seen as acceptable even though I have no intentions of dragging children into this whacky world, meaning that the most meaningful relationships I'd have as an old person would likely be with nurses who occasionally stop by to give me showers, change my diapers, and steal all of my credit cards ( ꒦ິ꒳꒦ີ)