i am ready to do it right now

[UltraRareSlinky]

i have my belt ready, i found a good place to suspend it, i tested it out, everything is ready but i am scared. whenever i lower myself and the belt tightens i start to panic and i cant fully commit to it. please tell me how. please tell me something that will make me able to do it. im too much of a coward.

 

[interna]

if *you're* not ready then don't do it. as sad as it may seem, no one else but you can give you the readiness to die

 

[UltraRareSlinky]

if *you're* not ready then don't do it. as sad as it may seem, no one else but you can give you the readiness to die

ive been doing attempts semi regularly for almost a decade. suicide is on my mind every day and im serious but i feel physically scared and panic and stop. i dont know how to "be ready" completely

 

[sanctionedusage]

i might plan to get some benzos or opiates specifically for this feeling. i cant shut my brain off to not think about what im about to do. its difficult. if youre not acutely in severe distress, i cant imagine many people commit to it right away, even if they're ready.