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Enlightened
- Apr 8, 2020
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I am physically healthy, slim and people in the past have complimented me as "pretty" but I dont see it at all. My family and people around me always " you are so lucky your physically healthy ".
I am not lucky at all. What good is being healthy if you dont know what do with your life and if you dont even know your real place in this world.
I have been purging since December and it feels good. I purge one or twice every week.
When I finish purging I feel so euphoric afterwards and calmed down . It is so much better than screaming and crying how my life is a mess and how I am a loser.
This month I have been drinking a laxative tea nearly everyday. It makes me go to the toliet but I love how flat my stomach feels. The negatives of purging are a inflamed sore thoart sometimes, involving vomiting that happens through no control of my own, feeling disgusting after enjoying a meal.
I lie so much about how happy I am to my family and they actually believe it. It is easier to live a lie than tell the truth especially since my family never actually listen and dont understand at all
I hate my life and have effectively ruined my life. I went from being a committed law student who wanted to do amazing and meaningful things with their lives to an unmotivated unemployed suicidal graduate who doesnt know her real place and has no direction in life.
I have given up on life i dont see the point in anything anymore
I am the architect of my own demise. I am 24 next month it is too late for me to fix my life.
I am not lucky at all. What good is being healthy if you dont know what do with your life and if you dont even know your real place in this world.
I have been purging since December and it feels good. I purge one or twice every week.
When I finish purging I feel so euphoric afterwards and calmed down . It is so much better than screaming and crying how my life is a mess and how I am a loser.
This month I have been drinking a laxative tea nearly everyday. It makes me go to the toliet but I love how flat my stomach feels. The negatives of purging are a inflamed sore thoart sometimes, involving vomiting that happens through no control of my own, feeling disgusting after enjoying a meal.
I lie so much about how happy I am to my family and they actually believe it. It is easier to live a lie than tell the truth especially since my family never actually listen and dont understand at all
I hate my life and have effectively ruined my life. I went from being a committed law student who wanted to do amazing and meaningful things with their lives to an unmotivated unemployed suicidal graduate who doesnt know her real place and has no direction in life.
I have given up on life i dont see the point in anything anymore
I am the architect of my own demise. I am 24 next month it is too late for me to fix my life.