I'm not sure how to talk about this, but here goes. I don't think I'm connected to reality. Something has gone wrong. It's like I'm in my body, but it belongs to someone else. Then sometimes, it seems obvious. It's hard to feel my feelings or trust what is real. I can't tell if this is recent or has always been the case. I am still functioning in life, so obviously I haven't gone insane. But this is a very unpleasant and upsetting experience. It feels a little better to talk about it.
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Mirrory Me
"Life's a mirror, but 'whose' mirror?"
- Mar 23, 2023
- 998
Yes, sometimes strange coincidences happen, and everything has a purpose. Reality can be much more mysterious and multidimensional than you might imagine, but also very simple and safe (some things work according to physical limits). We are constantly connected to the rest of the environment, not necessarily physically but energetically.
penguinl0v3s
Wait for Me đź’™
- Nov 1, 2023
- 782
Do you have depersonalization-derealization disorder? Aka DPDR/DPD/DDD.
certified_idiot
No Longer Human
- Dec 5, 2023
- 83
Honestly, same. I've felt like that for most of my life, but it's still alarming when I realize it after the fact. Sometimes I come back from one of these dissociative episodes only to realize that the world has moved on without me. It's quite scary. It's hard for me to comprehend that other people feel connected to their body. To me it's just a vessel that I use to interact with the world.
You mentioning this actually made me look it up and realize I have all of the symptoms and the correct causes so thanks!
Also yeah its exactly the same for me. I looked up DPDR and it seems to match perfectly. I tried getting some more sleep and finding things that connect me to reality and its been helpful. Also I made my account because I related so much to this comment and had not heard someone understand how I felt.
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Do you have a tendency to overthink/overanalyze things? Are you a daydreamer or "head in the clouds type"?
Or do you have any other symptoms of depersonalization disorders, such as feeling like you're watching yourself from the 3rd person instead of actually feeling like you are inside your body? Or misperceiving your own body(e.g. the size/shape/orientation of your limbs or body)?
Or do you have any addictions(not necessarily drugs) or habits that keep you disconnected from your own thoughts/body? e.g. porn, scrolling tiktok or other social media, being unable to sit quietly with your own thoughts, etc. Basically doing anything to escape your immediate awareness(and therefore your immediate pain/suffering)?
I have similar issues and there are a few causes that lead to this same kind of dissociated feeling, but are actually pretty different pathologically speaking. I'm not an expert but I'm familiar with most of these on a personal level and I'm curious if you think any of the things I listed above apply to you
Or do you have any other symptoms of depersonalization disorders, such as feeling like you're watching yourself from the 3rd person instead of actually feeling like you are inside your body? Or misperceiving your own body(e.g. the size/shape/orientation of your limbs or body)?
Or do you have any addictions(not necessarily drugs) or habits that keep you disconnected from your own thoughts/body? e.g. porn, scrolling tiktok or other social media, being unable to sit quietly with your own thoughts, etc. Basically doing anything to escape your immediate awareness(and therefore your immediate pain/suffering)?
I have similar issues and there are a few causes that lead to this same kind of dissociated feeling, but are actually pretty different pathologically speaking. I'm not an expert but I'm familiar with most of these on a personal level and I'm curious if you think any of the things I listed above apply to you
Is it all the time? I definitely get phases like that. It used to happen a lot in the mornings actually. I started to wonder if it was because of diet or something. Not enough protein or drinking too much water or something. I wonder if it's just our mind's way of dealing with stress though. Like- we can cope with life better if we aren't fully engaged with it. Also- are you on anti-depressants by any chance? They can tend to flatten out our emotions.
