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lunargreenx
21 year old gay boy
- Jun 16, 2020
- 139
I cannot keep on doing this.
I try so hard, I really wanted to live. I just cannot keep on like this. I've had enough. I am depressed and fighting for my life for 11 years out of my 21 year old life. This is like cancer of the mind.
Everytime I do something right, it always goes to shit anyway. Like now. I managed to get into a really good university. It should have been a huge achievment. But I am hating it. Everything. I've never been more lonely. Everytime it gets worse and worse after I try do something right.
I am like the dog that gets run over by car and the dog keeps on howling in pain minute after minute, while all other cars pass by. Except it's 11 years for me.
I try so hard, I really wanted to live. I just cannot keep on like this. I've had enough. I am depressed and fighting for my life for 11 years out of my 21 year old life. This is like cancer of the mind.
Everytime I do something right, it always goes to shit anyway. Like now. I managed to get into a really good university. It should have been a huge achievment. But I am hating it. Everything. I've never been more lonely. Everytime it gets worse and worse after I try do something right.
I am like the dog that gets run over by car and the dog keeps on howling in pain minute after minute, while all other cars pass by. Except it's 11 years for me.