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Enlightened
- Apr 8, 2020
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People think introverts are lonely and extroverts are not but being extroverted can be lonely too when people do not warm or click with you. I am a quirky extrovert but throughout my life I have struggled to fit in and I have gone through life not having friends there for you like other people have.
I was born naturally confident, not afraid to speak up and try new things but still throughout my life people thought I was werid. As a teenage girl I had the confidence to talk the boys I really liked but they thought I was werid and regularly builled me even my own crush cruelly humiliated me infront of their friends and the entire school. He didn't even care how upset he made me.
In my last job I made the effort to know everyone's names, genuinely cared about my colleagues and socialised but still I felt like I was never a real part of the team. My colleagues were much older and quiter while I am outspoken and liked travelling which everyone knew about. Everyone knew I was struggling with this unpleasant entilted POS customer and when I called out unpleasant customer for their ridiculous sense of entitlement the whole department gossiped about me over what I did and management had a melt down over my actions. The people who assigned me the challenging case distanceed themselves from me. I was weeks into my job and very inexperienced but still I was assigned this challenging case with no real support. When I sent an Christmas card to everyone at work none of my colleagues and boss said thank you. My colleagues were never honest with me about anything and went behind my back to my boss to whine how slow I am in handling cases no one ever gave me feedback to grow. My colleagues excluded me at work too.
I am enjoying university right now but I still feel so isolated. I am so lonely right now. I attend a large university with one of the best law programmes in the UK but still I feel isolated than ever even though I mix with the student population. The university I attend has a high population of students from overseas especially from China, India, USA and other countries across Europe even in my classes I am either the only Brit or belong to a small group of British students. A lot of students from overseas stick together with people from who come from the same country as them and they bond with each other with no real interest with mixing with other people ( NOT ALL). It can be hard to make friends . It shows a lot in where people sit next to each other in class and hang out around campus.
The university organises loads of events and outings which I do attend that is how I meet people but it lasts for a short while. I talk to people but it fizzles out after a while so I am lonely again. My socal skills a very high but finding people who reciprocate is difficult. In my law classes I have classmates who are practicing lawyers in their home nations or have impressive career histories. One of my American classmates she had a job working in human rights in New York. In my tax law classes I have classmates who are qualified lawyers in tax. I do feel like the odd one out sometimes.
I talk to the guys in my class and i can't click with them and they don't click with me either. Honestly this is why I can't over the the stoner militant athiest Norwegian guy I hanged out with all summer until he rejected me. The stoner guy and i we had the most fun conversations ever but guys at university it's not like that. I feel like I am never going to meet anyone fun like him ever. It's hurts so much because I really wanted him and we clicked with each other in someways
I was born naturally confident, not afraid to speak up and try new things but still throughout my life people thought I was werid. As a teenage girl I had the confidence to talk the boys I really liked but they thought I was werid and regularly builled me even my own crush cruelly humiliated me infront of their friends and the entire school. He didn't even care how upset he made me.
In my last job I made the effort to know everyone's names, genuinely cared about my colleagues and socialised but still I felt like I was never a real part of the team. My colleagues were much older and quiter while I am outspoken and liked travelling which everyone knew about. Everyone knew I was struggling with this unpleasant entilted POS customer and when I called out unpleasant customer for their ridiculous sense of entitlement the whole department gossiped about me over what I did and management had a melt down over my actions. The people who assigned me the challenging case distanceed themselves from me. I was weeks into my job and very inexperienced but still I was assigned this challenging case with no real support. When I sent an Christmas card to everyone at work none of my colleagues and boss said thank you. My colleagues were never honest with me about anything and went behind my back to my boss to whine how slow I am in handling cases no one ever gave me feedback to grow. My colleagues excluded me at work too.
I am enjoying university right now but I still feel so isolated. I am so lonely right now. I attend a large university with one of the best law programmes in the UK but still I feel isolated than ever even though I mix with the student population. The university I attend has a high population of students from overseas especially from China, India, USA and other countries across Europe even in my classes I am either the only Brit or belong to a small group of British students. A lot of students from overseas stick together with people from who come from the same country as them and they bond with each other with no real interest with mixing with other people ( NOT ALL). It can be hard to make friends . It shows a lot in where people sit next to each other in class and hang out around campus.
The university organises loads of events and outings which I do attend that is how I meet people but it lasts for a short while. I talk to people but it fizzles out after a while so I am lonely again. My socal skills a very high but finding people who reciprocate is difficult. In my law classes I have classmates who are practicing lawyers in their home nations or have impressive career histories. One of my American classmates she had a job working in human rights in New York. In my tax law classes I have classmates who are qualified lawyers in tax. I do feel like the odd one out sometimes.
I talk to the guys in my class and i can't click with them and they don't click with me either. Honestly this is why I can't over the the stoner militant athiest Norwegian guy I hanged out with all summer until he rejected me. The stoner guy and i we had the most fun conversations ever but guys at university it's not like that. I feel like I am never going to meet anyone fun like him ever. It's hurts so much because I really wanted him and we clicked with each other in someways
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