Venting I am experiencing all sorts of emotions, all at once.

[d3ad]

I am going through hell right now. I am experiencing all kinds of emotions: jealousy, anger, hatred, suicidal thoughts, brief senses of euphoria, sudden excitement, extreme sadness etc. I do not know what to do. My friends are busy and I have no one to talk to or to help me. I literally don't know what to do. I am going mad. I became worse after I got expelled from university. I feel like such a failure. I wish I didn't have ADHD and I wish I didn't experience trauma since I was a baby. All my CTB attempts fail because I act compulsively and I have little knowledge on how to perform the methods properly. Homicide is very common where I live though, so I might get lucky and become a victim idk. Counsellors refuse to help me because I prefer texting over phone calls.

 

[Candy_Catalyst]

I'm no specialist, but I'll be a listening ear through whatever way you feel comfortable. I relate to how you feel to a certain extent and to be honest I don't know what to do either haha, but that's okay I guess, I'm repeating a year and stuff while my friends are moving on to higher education. It's weird and frustrating because I don't doubt my ability but I can't sit still and I dont know what to do about it. But well it's okay I guess, I'll figure it out one day, we all will.

 

[d3ad]

I'm no specialist, but I'll be a listening ear through whatever way you feel comfortable. I relate to how you feel to a certain extent and to be honest I don't know what to do either haha, but that's okay I guess, I'm repeating a year and stuff while my friends are moving on to higher education. It's weird and frustrating because I don't doubt my ability but I can't sit still and I dont know what to do about it. But well it's okay I guess, I'll figure it out one day, we all will.

Thank you so much for offering to listen. Can I send you a message? I am sorry that you're also going through that. It really hurts and it sucks. I am sending you hugs and I am also here to support you.

 

[Viranamari]

Do you know why and when this has been happening? Did it all start from the trauma? If so, is there anything that you can do that can make you feel 'normal' not 'crazy?' There are many people here who experience something similar so maybe you can reach out to them. Anyways, I hope things get better. That does sound like a difficult situation to be in.

 

[Candy_Catalyst]

Thank you so much for offering to listen. Can I send you a message? I am sorry that you're also going through that. It really hurts and it sucks. I am sending you hugs and I am also here to support you.

Yep feel free to do so <3 I'm not very familiar with the site yet but I'll be incredibly happy to hear from you

 

[d3ad]

Yep feel free to do so <3 I'm not very familiar with the site yet but I'll be incredibly happy to hear from you

Thank you! I'm also not familiar with it, I'm a new member. It seems like I am not yet allowed to send messages. :(

Do you know why and when this has been happening? Did it all start from the trauma? If so, is there anything that you can do that can make you feel 'normal' not 'crazy?' There are many people here who experience something similar so maybe you can reach out to them. Anyways, I hope things get better. That does sound like a difficult situation to be in.

It started in 2021. I got better after going for therapy, but now it's back. A lot of traumatic things happened to me recently and I also started getting vivid flashbacks of my past trauma. I contacted my psychologist though so I'll wait for them to respond. I will try reaching out to other people, hopefully that'll work. Thank you!

 

[Candy_Catalyst]

Thank you! I'm also not familiar with it, I'm a new member. It seems like I am not yet allowed to send messages. :(

A I've managed to find the function and sent you a message, I'm not sure if you've managed to receive it but I believe you just need to refresh the site :D

 

[HelloIamSummer]

Hey! It is awful what you're going through. If you want to talk I'm here <3

 

[d3ad]

A I've managed to find the function and sent you a message, I'm not sure if you've managed to receive it but I believe you just need to refresh the site

Thank you so much, I received it <3

Hey! It is awful what you're going through. If you want to talk I'm here <3

Thank you so much. I will send you a message right now.

 

[FuneralCry]

That must be so horrible and tiring what you have to endure, of course there could never be any peace from suffering in this cruel world. But anyway, I wish you the best.