thethatsitboy
Nós tudo vive pra morrer, mas luta pela vida
- Jul 4, 2020
- 175
Hello everyone! I am genuinely asking: how are you guys and girls doing?
I am coming back right after watching Blackbird. Not the best movie, but it really look like us here. It is about a woman that will kill herself with pentobarbital, her husband is a doctor, and the family reunites to see her for the last time.
This period off was not really forced. Tbh, some "friends" I made at an online community made me spent my time. I laugh and everything (entertainment was never a problem). But the feelings are still here. I feel like one day I will be gone. I can't think of myself in five years. I still go to the therapy two times a week. I still take one fucking med. I still confused about my psychiatric treatment and my psychiatrist. Idk if I should go to another. Idk if I should use alprazolam irresponsibly in order to feel doped. Wow wow, life, I wonder how you can still suprise me.
I am wondering what happened here meanwhile (two weeks maybe). I will look into some things here now, but I would appreciate if something come into your mind and you updated me. Thanks!
I hope you guys are doing better andwant to let you know you can come to me to talk a bit (i need it too, who doesn't?).
I am just taking Lithium, I dont think this is the proper treatment for me. I still want to kill myself, just isn't in first plan.
The closest person on my life is having suicide thoughts and I understand her. But, god, it is so hard to deal with the whole situation.
I am confused as fuck and feeling that I want to cry again. I do not cry much, but I know when I'm feeling like it. Hope it comes soon. It is sad to feel like this, I just wanted that my psychologist and psychiatrist solved my feelings. Hope I will get better someday and that it doesn't take long.
I am coming back right after watching Blackbird. Not the best movie, but it really look like us here. It is about a woman that will kill herself with pentobarbital, her husband is a doctor, and the family reunites to see her for the last time.
This period off was not really forced. Tbh, some "friends" I made at an online community made me spent my time. I laugh and everything (entertainment was never a problem). But the feelings are still here. I feel like one day I will be gone. I can't think of myself in five years. I still go to the therapy two times a week. I still take one fucking med. I still confused about my psychiatric treatment and my psychiatrist. Idk if I should go to another. Idk if I should use alprazolam irresponsibly in order to feel doped. Wow wow, life, I wonder how you can still suprise me.
I am wondering what happened here meanwhile (two weeks maybe). I will look into some things here now, but I would appreciate if something come into your mind and you updated me. Thanks!
I hope you guys are doing better andwant to let you know you can come to me to talk a bit (i need it too, who doesn't?).
I am just taking Lithium, I dont think this is the proper treatment for me. I still want to kill myself, just isn't in first plan.
The closest person on my life is having suicide thoughts and I understand her. But, god, it is so hard to deal with the whole situation.
I am confused as fuck and feeling that I want to cry again. I do not cry much, but I know when I'm feeling like it. Hope it comes soon. It is sad to feel like this, I just wanted that my psychologist and psychiatrist solved my feelings. Hope I will get better someday and that it doesn't take long.
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