Hello & welcome to SS. If you ever need support, we'll be here for you.
The concept of self can be so fragile, yet all the same vital as we forge our way through life (This is an interesting topic).
I would like to believe in Karma, I mean- how great would it be to see people who do bad things reap the benefits of their actions. But this world seems to display otherwise.
I was raised Christian so I have spent some time agonizing over what happens next & I find it turns out to be a rabbit hole because we just don't know. I don't know how I feel about "going to hell" for CTB, nor do I necessarily want to go into a void of nothing or reincarnate, they each have their own cons.
Do I want to go to hell?
Definitely not.
Would I want there to be a void/nothing?
I mean, would it be that bad if I didn't have a conscious mind to perceive it.
Do I want to reincarnate?
I would hate to get another chance at life & screw it all up again.
Just things that float through & occupy mind.
Thanks for welcoming I'm glad to be here with this community
reincarnation is a nightmare for me
Right from pets stuck in a cage for life, bound or leashed, upto the food chain in wild nature I have seen a video of a baby Buffalo being eaten alive by a Komodo dragon on YT and this is just an example of the cruelty in nature and I'm of the opinion that this must be hell. And also the way slaughter of animals is done in some countries without knocking the animal unconscious they just cut the throat of the animal while it is still conscious and alive and wait for it to bleed out
I'm terrified of becoming any of those
Even among humans I've seen homeless people suffering so much I feel really lucky to be where I am at the moment at the same time so guilty that there's absolutely nothing I can do about any of the suffering in this world in a manner which makes a difference
Everyday I'm alive I feel like I'm taking part in this suffering and benefitting myself by self preservation it's a horrible place to be
If we take part in the suffering and eat meat we are healthy physically and mentally and we live longer
If we overeat meat we may die from cholesterol or something
If we don't eat and go vegan we risk other problems and suffering and we die
If we don't eat at all we suffer and die
It's like the perfect hell right here