I accidently told my friends about this place. had to delete my account

[IwishIwasntme383]

I was having a episode awhile ago. I was in a really depressive mood. I told my friends I was gonna kill myself and that I found out how because of this place.

They demanded me to delete my account. had too as I was worried.

I feel really bad

 

[AerialBoundaries]

I've never told anybody about this place, irl, but I've said certain things which could easily identify me if someone I knew ended up on here, or is already on here. I considered deleting my account a few times, but honestly I'm completely apathetic to the situation. If people find out about me, they find out.

Your friends probably had the belief that this site drives and actively encourages people to commit suicide, which isn't the case. People come here because they have no other support. Them demanding that you delete a means of support wouldn't have sit well with me, if I was in your situation. I wouldn't have done it.

 

[not-2-b-the-answer]

It's ok. We all have our episodes. I did tell a friend I wanted to die. Didn't go well.
I didn't mention S.S. so afaik they don't know about it.

 

[IwishIwasntme383]

I've never told anybody about this place, irl, but I've said certain things which could easily identify me if someone I knew ended up on here, or is already on here. I considered deleting my account a few times, but honestly I'm completely apathetic to the situation. If people find out about me, they find out.

Your friends probably had the belief that this site drives and actively encourages people to commit suicide, which isn't the case. People come here because they have no other support. Them demanding that you delete a means of support wouldn't have sit well with me, if I was in your situation. I wouldn't have done it.

I was in a really bad state.

I mostly come here for comfort, sometimes they complain that I vent too much and that I should stop venting to them at times. so I came here to vent here instead so they don't have to hear it.

 

[unending_emptiness]

telling stuff to our friends happens and we can't really control it . Don't feel bad, seriously . Kinda sucks when friends don't understand. I know that if I told my friends they would do the same which kinda sucks. It's kinda embarrassing but once I sent my friend a goodbye text and then she forced me to stay in call with her it was rly awkward and then she tried to take away anything sharp, etc . Depressive episodes happen to the best of us. Good luck and I hope your fiends will be more understanding toward you :) You deserve better, more understanding friends .

 

[IwishIwasntme383]

telling stuff to our friends happens and we can't really control it . Don't feel bad, seriously . Kinda sucks when fiends don't understand. I know that if I told my friends they would do the same which kinda sucks. It's kinda embarrassing but once I sent my friend a goodbye text and then she forced me to stay in call with her it was rly not fun and awkward. Depressive episodes happen to the best of us. Good luck and I hope your fiends will be more understanding toward you :)

idk the thing is. I think they don't want to understand. they all think I am crazy.

For example, sometimes I go on Twitter, even though I shouldn't as I always find something that makes me upset on there. but whenever I do get upset. people always tell me to go somewhere else. but like...

- Reddit is too crowded I never really find anything on there I like, and I often do find something there that makes me upset

- Tumblr is trying too hard to be twitter and ever since the porn ban everyone I like has left.

- Everyone left Deviantart after that eclipse and AI art fiasco.

- Most of my niche interests I have have sites that are dead or locked behind discord servers that I cannot access.

- everyone I know is on twitter and only post on twitter

 

[AerialBoundaries]

idk the thing is. I think they don't want to understand. they all think I am crazy.
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For example, sometimes I go on Twitter, even though I shouldn't as I always find something that makes me upset on there. but whenever I do get upset. people always tell me to go somewhere else. but like...

- Reddit is too crowded I never really find anything on there I like

- Tumblr is trying too hard to be twitter and ever sense the porn ban everyone I like has left.

- everyone left Deviantart after that eclipse and AI art fiasco.

- Most of my niche interests I have have sites that are dead or locked behind discord servers that I cannot access.

- everyone I know is on twitter and only post on twitter

"searching for reasons to be sad", as if it's a choice. This person lacks empathy and needs to educate themselves on mental health. Attitudes like that are why I hate people and don't tell anybody anything.

 

[unending_emptiness]

idk the thing is. I think they don't want to understand. they all think I am crazy.
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For example, sometimes I go on Twitter, even though I shouldn't as I always find something that makes me upset on there. but whenever I do get upset. people always tell me to go somewhere else. but like...

- Reddit is too crowded I never really find anything on there I like

- Tumblr is trying too hard to be twitter and ever sense the porn ban everyone I like has left.

- everyone left Deviantart after that eclipse and AI art fiasco.

- Most of my niche interests I have have sites that are dead or locked behind discord servers that I cannot access.

- everyone I know is on twitter and only post on twitter

Man, I'm sorry but your friends are really messed up. The way they text you is so toxic and I really think it's best to avoid them. Based on what you've told me , I think this forum is almost one of the best places. It's the same for me. I guess it makes the two of us that everyone thinks we are crazy. It hilarious to me how people say they will support struggling friends but then back down when they see someone suffering too much. They always pretend to support you until your struggles aren't all aesthetic and all. If anything I relate to you. By the way If you ever need someone to vent to more privately or want a friend I'm here (no obligation whatsoever)

"searching for reasons to be sad", as if it's a choice. This person lacks empathy and needs to educate themselves on mental health. Attitudes like that are why I hate people and don't tell anybody anything.

Yeah it's hilarious how everyone advocates for mental health support unless it isn't the normal aesthetic movie sadness or something like that. I bet that « friend » thinks they are the victim and everything

 

[IwishIwasntme383]

Man, I'm sorry but your friends are really messed up. The way they text you is so toxic and I really think it's best to avoid them. Based on what you've told me , I think this forum is almost one of the best places. It's the same for me. I guess it makes the two of us that everyone thinks we are crazy. It hilarious to me how people say they will support struggling friends but then back down when they see someone suffering too much. They always pretend to support you until your struggles aren't all aesthetic and all. If anything I relate to you. By the way If you ever need someone to vent to more privately or want a friend I'm here (no obligation whatsoever)

"searching for reasons to be sad", as if it's a choice. This person lacks empathy and needs to educate themselves on mental health. Attitudes like that are why I hate people and don't tell anybody anything.

idk... the thing is... I tell people what would make me happy just... they never seem to really do it or think I am crazy

like this one friend, I just ask them, if we could watch anime again like we used to, but they always say "they are busy with work" yet have all the time in the fucking world to hang out with their porn addict friends and record themselves fucking themselves.

I don't care what he does or does not, I just fucking feel like I am being lied too.

 

[StaringIntoAnAbyss]

idk the thing is. I think they don't want to understand. they all think I am crazy.
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Damn they really couldn't reply much worse.
really messed up that they forced you to close the only way for you to vent if you need someone to talk to just dm me

 

[AerialBoundaries]

Man, I'm sorry but your friends are really messed up. The way they text you is so toxic and I really think it's best to avoid them. Based on what you've told me , I think this forum is almost one of the best places. It's the same for me. I guess it makes the two of us that everyone thinks we are crazy. It hilarious to me how people say they will support struggling friends but then back down when they see someone suffering too much. They always pretend to support you until your struggles aren't all aesthetic and all. If anything I relate to you. By the way If you ever need someone to vent to more privately or want a friend I'm here (no obligation whatsoever)

Yeah it's hilarious how everyone advocates for mental health support unless it isn't the normal aesthetic movie sadness or something like that. I bet that « friend » thinks they are the victim and everything

That friend will be playing the town crier and telling everybody he tried to save them and that he loved them, if they were to CTB.

 

[unending_emptiness]

idk... the thing is... I tell people what would make me happy just... they never seem to really do it or think I am crazy

like this one friend, I just ask them, if we could watch anime again like we used to, but they always say "they are busy with work" yet have all the time in the fucking world to hang out with their porn addict friends and record themselves fucking themselves.

Man I feel such hatred towards these « people » that I've never even met. Those aren't friends . You aren't even a demanding person! ( based on what you have told me , all you need is what a normal friendship has) I can't believe just watching anime with you would make them happy and then that ignore it , then call you crazy ! You need new friends . Cause tbh in my eyes they are the crazy ones .

 

[AerialBoundaries]

idk... the thing is... I tell people what would make me happy just... they never seem to really do it or think I am crazy

like this one friend, I just ask them, if we could watch anime again like we used to, but they always say "they are busy with work" yet have all the time in the fucking world to hang out with their porn addict friends and record themselves fucking themselves.

I don't care what he does or does not, I just fucking feel like I am being lied too.

They're not being a good friend to you and it seems you've grown apart.

We often to look to things we enjoyed in the past to bring back the happiness, like you watching anime with your friend. For me, it was something different. It makes you more miserable in the end because it's never the same. I don't recommend it.

 

[IwishIwasntme383]

They're not being a good friend to you and it seems you've grown apart.

We often to look to things we enjoyed in the past to bring back the happiness, like you watching anime with your friend. For me, it was something different. It makes you more miserable in the end because it's never the same. I don't recommend it.

maybe your right

 

[DaysOfTomorrow]

That's unfortunate but good to have you back and I hope you are who I think you are!