Venting Hungry but cannot eat

[Lilacmoon]

Sorry for bothering you, this isn't really a big deal.

But I'm so hungry. I had a few celery sticks yesterday. I can't eat because my mind goes crazy and screams and me and tells me I'm disgusting and unworthy and not allowed to eat.

It's dumb I guess.

 

[schopenh]

Same here although because of interstitial cystitis my abdomen area feels like it has glass in it and the muscle movements of eating hurt. Haven't ate in a few hours but I'm very hungry.

 

[DyingAlf]

You're not bothering us! Vent anytime.
I don't think it's dumb. Our minds can be so controlling & so damn nasty.
Sorry that you're struggling.

 

[Georgii]

I wish I could scream at you "YOU ARE AMAZING , LOVING AND YOU DESERVE TO EAT ,YOU DESERVE TO FILL THAT CUTE STOMACH .YOU ARE WORTHY.PERIOD "

 

[almost_dead]

Dont fight the mind bcz you are not different from the mind .

 

[Lux]

It's not dumb. Sometimes I can't eat even though I'm hungry either.
I just feel sick and feel like I'm going to vomit anything that I consume. Then I just don't.
I usually just wait it out or just force myself to eat because I don't like the stabbing stomach pain that I get if I don't eat for like 48 hours.

 

[LonelyNick]

Because of my gallbladder I'm barely eating too. I lost 100lb the past few months because when I do eat, I puke. I'm hoping it'll kill me but not too hopeful to be released from my pain.

 

[Lilacmoon]

you're all too nice :( i've been unworthy for years, so it's hard to fight against that much internalized dumbness.if I wait too long to try and eat I pass out and can't study, so I have to force it and deal with the mental damage I guess.

Same here although because of interstitial cystitis my abdomen area feels like it has glass in it and the muscle movements of eating hurt. Haven't ate in a few hours but I'm very hungry.

that's terrible ;_: I'm so sorry you have to deal with that.

 

[Life_and_Death]

have you ever tried telling yourself that you are worthy? you might not believe it at fist but after a while it will get ingrained into your mind until you do believe it.

 

[Lilacmoon]

have you ever tried telling yourself that you are worthy? you might not believe it at fist but after a while it will get ingrained into your mind until you do believe it.

I tried, but there's too many awful things I did to provide evidence that I am awful, so it's hard to work against it.

 

[Ghost2211]

You're so nice to all of us. How about eat a bit of food for each of us that sees your worth and value? You'll get through an entire meal in no time!

 

[yep]

not To de intrusive but do u have an eating disorder? I used to struggle with it, and it kinda sounds similar.

 

[Lilacmoon]

You're so nice to all of us. How about eat a bit of food for each of us that sees your worth and value? You'll get through an entire meal in no time!

Aww, Rosey, you're one of the nicest around. <3

not To de intrusive but do u have an eating disorder? I used to struggle with it, and it kinda sounds similar.

Probably? Sometimes I starve, other times I vomit. Not diagnosed though, so it might just be me.

 

[Sinkinshyp]

some good advice has been mentioned instead of repeating it I <3's them. You ARE worthy. You don't want to get sick from not eating and end up in a hospital right now especially with covid. If you have to tell yourself I'll have to deal with covid hospitals maybe it'll help you eat a little more. Agreed you have been nothing but kind towards the members here eat a bite for each of us =)...

I have the opposite problem I don't get hungry. Sometimes my only meal for a couple of days is cheese when I raid on my video game. Maybe eat something and tell me what it was like? you do have me wanting some celery sticks with cream cheese and olives in it now.

 

[Lilacmoon]

I know I should. I will have to force it probably. Everyone's really nice, so it would be a waste of that kindness to at least not try to eat. I suppose. Covid would be terrible... another motivator I suppose.

i guess i can eat a pack of carrot sticks and then deal with the head stuff after. they're a little sweet.

 

[Sinkinshyp]

I know I should. I will have to force it probably. Everyone's really nice, so it would be a waste of that kindness to at least not try to eat. I suppose. Covid would be terrible... another motivator I suppose.

i guess i can eat a pack of carrot sticks and then deal with the head stuff after. they're a little sweet.

thank you =) I would not want to chance getting covid. It's not pleasant not being able to breathe. I had respiratory failure in 2013 I know what it feels like and NEVER want to feel that again. I used to boil down carrots, drain the water. Melt in butter, mix in some brown sugar and cinnamon. My boys never refused their carrots. They loved them. If you were up to cooking and wanted more sweet try it out. Just a tiny dash of cinnamon and enough brown sugar to melt in the butter.


I haven't gone out to the store in a month or so. I'm considering going or sending my bro (which I normally do ) to get me some celery and cream cheese. I think I still have some olives. The last 3 nights I've told him put my dinner in fridge I'll eat it when I'm hungry. If I tell him I'm hungry and want celery he would surely go get it.

 

[Ghost2211]

schools are reopening on oct 18 be interesting to see how that goes. You're not super likely to get covid from going to the store especially if you go really early.

 

[Sinkinshyp]

schools are reopening on oct 18 be interesting to see how that goes. You're not super likely to get covid from going to the store especially if you go really early.

does that mean your littles will be in school and you'll get some much needed alone time? Because of my emphysema- the respiratory failure in 2013 docs had me avoiding crowds. I pick up everything. Being an insomniac I used to go out to walmart at 2am shopping. NO crowds so no exposure and it was so peaceful to casually browse the isles with only the floor waxers and stockers around. I would go and just browse taking my time.

 

[Ghost2211]

does that mean your littles will be in school and you'll get some much needed alone time? Because of my emphysema- the respiratory failure in 2013 docs had me avoiding crowds. I pick up everything. Being an insomniac I used to go out to walmart at 2am shopping. NO crowds so no exposure and it was so peaceful to casually browse the isles with only the floor waxers and stockers around. I would go and just browse taking my time.

Emphysema is awful. I'm so sorry you're dealing with that. I can't breathe well either. Got the flu 3 years ago and can't breathe super well ever since. It's just chronic intrinsic asthma now. No, school won't be a break. I'll have to walk 4 miles a day and still have 2 hours a day of aba during school time with my toddler, but at least it's a change of pace. Most places school has opened they close again after a couple weeks since people bring sick kids to school.

 

[Spitfire]

I am just relating because sometimes I experience bouts where days can go by in which I am not eating much of anything. I may even have to force myself through the chewing process to get the food into me at times.

I think a lot of it is in the mind for me. Plus, I am not always the best at taking care of myself every day.

I try to always have milk and carnation instant breakfast or protein powder on hand, and a jar of peanut butter to make it easier to get some nutrients into me.

It seems like too much of a task at times, but still I also love to eat good tasty food at other times.


Hey Rosey, you watching this new stuff going on about whatshisname.. and of course the pandemic in the US and going into the fall.

Sidetracked a little I know sorry. I just was really saying it to say something about it.

This is something that has me curious to see the future still!