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ummwhaaat
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- Oct 25, 2020
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I hung myself(unsuccesfully, obviously) a few hours ago. I'll say it was a bit impulsive as in I have wanted to die every single day of my life for 4-5 years or so and something pushed me over the edge so I decided to go ahead and try it thinking the worst thing that happens is it wont work.
After I put my weight into the noose I honestly only remember being lucid for like 3 seconds and I guess I must have gained some faint consciousness because suddenly I had no idea why I was hanging in my bathroom, almost completely senseless. So for that reason I decided to stand up, and I became a little more lucid but I was paniccing because the noose was still tight around my neck and I felt like I was going to faint any second, so I rushed to take it off instead of just finishing it off.
After I had been lying on the ground catching my breath I got up and honestly I didn't even feel terrible inside, so I decided to stop what I was doing for now.
Unfortunately I feel like shit again but still I'll probably just bide my time a little more, knowing I can leave any time.
Anyways this was 5½ hours ago and still my entire left ear is numb, also some of my chin around my ear mainly. Also feels like my left arm became slightly weaker.
Also my face is completely busted haha there red dots all over, and it's much darker than usual. Also the rope left a mark, since i used some socks as a layer between the rope and my neck, but the sock slipped off in one side.
I guess I'll round off with a question which I suppose is actually the primary reason I am posting this: reckon the numbness will pass?
After I put my weight into the noose I honestly only remember being lucid for like 3 seconds and I guess I must have gained some faint consciousness because suddenly I had no idea why I was hanging in my bathroom, almost completely senseless. So for that reason I decided to stand up, and I became a little more lucid but I was paniccing because the noose was still tight around my neck and I felt like I was going to faint any second, so I rushed to take it off instead of just finishing it off.
After I had been lying on the ground catching my breath I got up and honestly I didn't even feel terrible inside, so I decided to stop what I was doing for now.
Unfortunately I feel like shit again but still I'll probably just bide my time a little more, knowing I can leave any time.
Anyways this was 5½ hours ago and still my entire left ear is numb, also some of my chin around my ear mainly. Also feels like my left arm became slightly weaker.
Also my face is completely busted haha there red dots all over, and it's much darker than usual. Also the rope left a mark, since i used some socks as a layer between the rope and my neck, but the sock slipped off in one side.
I guess I'll round off with a question which I suppose is actually the primary reason I am posting this: reckon the numbness will pass?