Suicide's promise of peace helps me to get back to sleep when I wake up in the middle of the night. Knowing it's an option wraps me in a warm blanket and tucks me in to sleep. I wish it was easier to commit suicide. I wish I had N. Good night. Sweet dreams. Don't let the bed bugs of the authorities bite.
Suicide is the only thing that calms me down and helps get trough the day.
But you know this feeling, for me, is very fleeting because I'm not sure of my method, and it's the only method I think will work for me, but when I believe that my method will work I have peace. That's why I want suicide to be available, to free people, to give them peace. Other people don't know the pain of being me. So call me weak. Fine. Just give me a pill that's a ticket out of here and you can say whatever you want about me. I won't even hate you for saying it. Just let me leave.
But wouldn't it be beautiful if there really were suicide pills available? There could be a science fiction movie written about this. The protagonist is tested, it's a quick test, he has the suicide gene, and then he spends his last day convincing some one else that their life is beautiful, that's the conflict their life is beautiful but they can't see it as beautiful but he gets them to see that beauty after helping them struggle through their false vision, and they thank him for helping them to see that beauty. Then he dies and it's beautiful.
Free suicide pills for every depressed person and death to the tyrants who would hold them back from their happy graves.
Life is a slice of cake I don't want to eat so please don't force feed me.
Imagine if it were easy. You could spend your last moments listening to your fan blowing in the dark. Then you reach over, take your pill, swallow it down and lie back in bed and listen to night sounds until you drift into sleep and then it's over.
They say suicide is selfish and I'll agree: I know myself because I've lived as me for too long. I know these aren't temporary mental states. So it isn't a permanent solution to a temporary problem.
Even though it sounds like you are in a world of pain, you write beautifully. Your plot for the science fiction movie is intriguing.
FadedMemory
Student
- Aug 5, 2018
- 133
Whenever I'm scared or in pain, I always remind myself that it's okay because it will all be over soon.
I immediately feel better.
I immediately feel better.
