how youll be acknowledged post-ctb

[sanctionedusage]

it feels so awkward to think about

sometimes my sibling will mention telling their friends about me, whom ive never spoken to, and its so weird knowing that random strangers know me while i know nothing about them

and then one day it wont be 'sanctionedusage called me retarded shes being mean' itll be 'sanctionedusage just killed herself'

'it was a suicide'

'my sister hanged herself last night'

like shit. what a dark mood killer




and knowing i'll be used as a source of pity & leniency. needing time off work, 'my daughter passed away.'

'its been hard since my kid committed suicide,'

'sorry for my __, my daughter committed suicide last month.'



im glad im out of high school. the number of bitches that'd use me to get an extension on their papers is comical.

 

[Forever Sleep]

I do wonder about it but then, it's so difficult to really judge what people will think or say. Part of me thinks they would be shocked but then, I can also see some people saying- there were always signs. I can't even really figure out if people will be sad or more pro-choice about it.

 

[srilankanbeyotch]

Im gonna leave a note and that would be it. They could interpret and acknowledge it however they want that best fits my ending in their perspective but only I know what the real meaning is. Plus when im dead, nothing will matter anymore.

 

[Realog11]

Im gonna leave a note and that would be it. They could interpret and acknowledge it however they want that best fits my ending in their perspective but only I know what the real meaning is. Plus when im dead, nothing will matter anymore.

I thought about leaving a note decided not to, but maybe I should leave a note

 

[srilankanbeyotch]

I thought about leaving a note decided not to, but maybe I should leave a note

Its really up to your decision. I choose to leave a note since I know my family would want to blame it on someone opening a homicide investigation or something even though my CTB method would be an obvious case of suicide (SN)

 

[Realog11]

Its really up to your decision. I choose to leave a note since I know my family would want to blame it on someone opening a homicide investigation or something even though my CTB method would be an obvious case of suicide (SN)

Where will you put the note?

 

[srilankanbeyotch]

Where will you put the note?

Im ctbng in a hotel so probably somewhere there at a table

 

[Exhausted546]

My family honestly wouldn't deserve me to leave a note. They'd dismiss my words even in death and go with their own narrative. My death would be taking agency and peace over my life for once

 

[StupidCat]

Pretty much like a retard who did a retarded thing

 

[Forveleth]

People can use me to get time off work all they want. The amount of devastation they will feel as a result if my death is well worth bring used as an excuse.

 

[jenson]

Ehh I don't think it matters. I've thought about it for a while but why would people's opinions matter after you are dead. Like people who worry about deleting their browser history or the effect it will have on their friends/family or whatever, its not like you will be able to care when its all said and done. Thats what makes ctb so great, nothing matters after as long as you succeed.