or should I discharge my phone break my door handle to make sure i don't escape?
I remember getting myself into a nasty predicament where I didn't see a way out, and my SI took over. It was like a wild beast taking full control of the body, started screaming and rawring, like an animal who is being eaten alive. It's stupid and just as much powerful. There have been triggers in the past that urged me to make an attempt to CTB, and now they either don't affect me anymore, or I'm trying my best to avoid it. It's like SI is adaptive. Like it has access to my memory block, processing power, sees everything I see, so whenever I find what I think is a loophole, my survival side immediately patches it up. Which makes me wondering why should I even try to obtain information that will be used against me by a superior force.
It works both ways. Not being aware of the danger makes it easier to kill myself, but at the same time not knowing the variables makes the outcome more unpredictable, and I could as well get injured, or put myself in a disadvantage in some other way. Knowing the variables might allow to predict outcomes more accurately, but then my survival side will use this knowledge to stall my plans and to stave off my death.
I know from personal and anecdotal experience that mind-altering substances, like weed and alcohol, can block some inhibitory functions, and some of these functions might be vital, but I wouldn't dare to mix SN with any of these. There might be drugs compatible to SN method. Stan's guide mentioned painkillers and sedatives, but I'm not planning to use them and don't know much about them.