Deadlyroses

Deadlyroses

Sad Millennial
Mar 28, 2021
119
I answered a thread about things that would stop you from ctb and it got me thinking. If finances were no longer a problem for me, I'd quit my full time job and drop out of school immediately. I'd buy a cozy simple home in the mountains somewhere and live off of the land. Growing food and living in nature. Away from all the chaos. No obligations. No due dates. No meetings. No rush hour traffic. No stressing over bills and loans. No loud chaotic crowds. Just me and my small cozy home and my food garden. I'd dedicate every waking moment to taking care of myself and enjoying my existence for the first time.

My demons would probably still catch up with me at some point. I'd probably ctb years down the line. But at least I'd get a taste of real peace before I go. A taste of life as it should be. Too bad this will never happen.

What will actually happen is that I'll ctb while young and in a frenzy. Desperate to be free from being a wage slave in this fucking toxic rat race of a society.
 
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WornOutLife

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Mar 22, 2020
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I would buy a big house, luxurious cruise, travel around the world and buy whatever material stuff you could think of.

Then, I would give my family all the money and ctb.

I could be really happy with money but I wouls always be suicidal
 
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Tortured_empath

Arcanist
Apr 7, 2019
463
I'd buy a small house by a body of water. Cook a lot more. Honestly I enjoy waking up 9-5, so I'd probably still have that. I'd buy some more clothes maybe.
 
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Celerity

Celerity

shape without form, shade without colour
Jan 24, 2021
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I'd be just as miserable but in a yacht off the coast of Europe.
 
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stilltrying

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Apr 5, 2021
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Honestly, I know it's pathethic and over used, but money never mean happiness. You struggle to earn them and when you finally do, new problems suddenly arrive. I know it from my own life experience. Have plenty of them and still not feeling well. Probably that's why so many celebrities decide to end their lives.
 
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I'm scared

Member
Feb 16, 2021
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I would pay for the best mental health help for my teen daughter as the bastard NHS Camhs won't help her,agrophobia anxiety.pay for a gastro doctor to fix my digestive disorders,buy my older children a house,hire a hit man..
 
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Now_And_Then

Now_And_Then

If I am no good , then let me out
Jun 30, 2019
277
It wouldn't
 
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Deadlyroses

Deadlyroses

Sad Millennial
Mar 28, 2021
119
Honestly, I know it's pathethic and over used, but money never mean happiness. You struggle to earn them and when you finally do, new problems suddenly arrive. I know it from my own life experience. Have plenty of them and still not feeling well. Probably that's why so many celebrities decide to end their lives.
Makes sense. I guess it's different in my case because money has been a source of stress for my entire life. Having it here and now would be such a relief. It would solve my current surface level problems. But as I said in the post, my demons wouldn't just disappear. They'd lurk at first. Eventually they'd come out of the shadows. Even if new problems weren't to arise with the money, I'd still have those same demons to battle.

It would still be nice to experience whatever semblance of peace money can bring before I die.
 
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ExhaustedExistence

ExhaustedExistence

Life is just waiting for death
Mar 26, 2021
693
I would buy a big house, luxurious cruise, travel around the world and buy whatever material stuff you could think of.

Then, I would give my family all the money and ctb.

I could be really happy with money but I wouls always be suicidal
Absolutely same for me. I would just specify that the big house has to be by the seaside :)
 
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Dr Iron Arc

Dr Iron Arc

Into the Unknown
Feb 10, 2020
20,718
Idk I feel like the old happiness equilibrium would force me to find a way to still be depressed even with all the money I could ever need. I realize I'm very greedy and stupid with money so I'd probably need to be a billionaire to actually get away with never having to worry about money again...
 
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stygal

stygal

low-wage worker
Oct 29, 2020
1,732
Money would solve a lot of my problems and definitely make me happier (maybe short term though) - but I didn't even need to be rich, just have enough to never have to go to work again.
Pls, universe, make that happen.
Btw my dream life looks very similar to yours @Deadlyroses :)
 
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Celerity

Celerity

shape without form, shade without colour
Jan 24, 2021
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Idk I feel like the old happiness equilibrium would force me to find a way to still be depressed even with all the money I could ever need. I realize I'm very greedy and stupid with money so I'd probably need to be a billionaire to actually get away with never having to worry about money again...
Hedonic treadmill is a bitch. It is known. That's why I think at least half of the people on here are doomed for lifetime unhappiness.
 
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Dr Iron Arc

Into the Unknown
Feb 10, 2020
20,718
Hedonic treadmill is a bitch. It is known. That's why I think at least half of the people on here are doomed for lifetime unhappiness.
Oh my god, that's what it was called! I knew what I said wasn't the official term but I forgot lol thanks for reminding me.

But yeah, it does not bode well for us for sure...
 
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motel rooms

Survivor of incest. Gay. Please don't PM me.
Apr 13, 2021
7,086
I would do the purest heroin 24/7, transition to the purest fentanyl & eventually OD
 
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Celerity

shape without form, shade without colour
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LastFlowers

LastFlowers

the haru that can read
Apr 27, 2019
2,170
I'm not saying it would hurt, but it would certainly not guarantee a solution to my problems and reason to ctb.
Honestly, I know it's pathethic and over used, but money never mean happiness. You struggle to earn them and when you finally do, new problems suddenly arrive. I know it from my own life experience. Have plenty of them and still not feeling well. Probably that's why so many celebrities decide to end their lives.
I don't think wealth is why certain celebrities decide to end their lives.
It is still a very weighty privilege that would be foolish to turn our noses up at, even if it wouldn't solve our core reason for suffering. But I will agree that $ does not equal the absence of reasons to ctb.
I'd buy a small house by a body of water. Cook a lot more. Honestly I enjoy waking up 9-5, so I'd probably still have that. I'd buy some more clothes maybe.
Hmm, maybe I'd buy a silk bag to put over my head.
 
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LONE WOLF.

LONE WOLF.

PUNISHER.
Nov 4, 2020
1,988
I'd buy a bungalow with a double garage and build a Nuclear bunker underneath it stocked up with food/Dog food Weapons Armoured Vehicles Fuel, and then build a 5ft wall all round the whole 5 Acre property with gun towers on all four corners and gun turrets built into the walls with a 25ft moat all the way around, CCTV covering every square inch of the place! Oh and a couple of heavy tanks!
 
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bloomingdark

Alex
Jan 24, 2019
170
I would buy my own apartment/house , get drunk or high as fuck with anything that crosses by and then ctb when everything consumes me
 
LunarPyotr

LunarPyotr

Похорони меня возле МКАДа
Jul 4, 2020
495
First of all, I would purchase a new laptop since mine is already very old and recently I had trouble with editing 48mp RAW pictures.
Since I'm obsessed with Linux operating systems, I would most likely buy the System76 Pangolin laptop. If the shipping will be impossible or take too long, I will buy probably some other laptop with AMD CPU.

Second, I was thinking about moving to a different country because I don't feel comfortable living in my country anymore..


Honestly, those are the only options that I can think of.
I don't need any new car since I prefer old cars due to their simplicity and repair friendly design.
 
finalexit

finalexit

Member
Jan 24, 2021
84
I'd never work again, not struggle to pay bills, be able to afford more mental health treatment (give it as much of a fair shot as I can anyway, even though I don't have much faith in it), get a new computer for my music and video projects as mine has really been struggling, possibly hire other people to mix/master my music so I don't have to kill myself obsessing over it, pay for lessons/other ways to keep learning and growing, help others who are struggling, eat better, stop supporting any major corporations, live away from the city (middle of nowhere maybe), try out a hair system, hire an assassin to kill me.
 
Carrotcake

Carrotcake

Experienced
Nov 27, 2019
265
I would still be depressed, but comfortably depressed.
 
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bea1974

Specialist
Aug 7, 2019
331
I would fulfil my dream of setting up a sanctuary, in a rural place, for injured/sick animals, which unhappy humans could retreat to and where they would take care of the animals, the land, and each other.
I would set up a board of trustees with legally binding contracts to ensure they ran it according to my wishes.
Then I would go to Pegasos in Switzerland and find my own peace.
 
Disappointered

Disappointered

Enlightened
Sep 21, 2020
1,284
At this point I would give my gf a bunch of stuff but that's about it. The people on SS aren't any better than in the regular world and I have no place in the regular world. So I think I'd still end up catching the bus in the end as the best I can hope for is to be an infirmed burden to the one person who lets me in her life while withering away further. Better to just stop the bleeding now.
 
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GrumpyFrog

GrumpyFrog

Exhausted
Aug 23, 2020
1,913
I don't think money would make me happy...but they would certainly keep me from being miserable enough to want out of life ASAP. I could eat whatever I want, wear whatever I want, install air conditioning, once the quarantine BS is over I would be able to go out and travel, generally live a decent life. I would finally have a surgery that will allow me not to be in pain all the time. That'd be great.
 
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charlotte greentea

charlotte greentea

Misery Chick
Apr 2, 2021
59
If I had all the money in the world, I would move to another country and have a good time of it. If it made me not want to kill myself after all that would make me extremely happy. If I still wanted to kill myself, I'd keep traveling until I got to a place where I didn't want to kill myself until I ran out of places to go. That would at least give me plenty of time to be absolutely sure there was no place on earth that I could be happy in.
 
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decafcoffee

decafcoffee

Member
Nov 15, 2019
85
First of all, I would purchase a new laptop since mine is already very old and recently I had trouble with editing 48mp RAW pictures.
Since I'm obsessed with Linux operating systems, I would most likely buy the System76 Pangolin laptop. If the shipping will be impossible or take too long, I will buy probably some other laptop with AMD CPU.

Second, I was thinking about moving to a different country because I don't feel comfortable living in my country anymore..


Honestly, those are the only options that I can think of.
I don't need any new car since I prefer old cars due to their simplicity and repair friendly design.
u in belarus cause i thought of moving back there myself, throughout my life. only because my grandmother has a nice apartment there and she would never make me pay rent or kick me out. actually she wouldnt be satisfied unless i lived with her or in her city im guessing based on how dramatic she always acts whenever getting a letter or phone call. in minsk. but im too tired to try, sorry grandma. but you shouldnt have raised such a piece of shit for a son tbh.
 
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Pisceslilith

Pisceslilith

Student
Aug 19, 2019
159
I would obviously still be mentally ill but at least I would get to do whatever I want and live however I want and best of all I would finally get away from certain people (triggers).
 
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my heart hurts

Things could be worse, I guess.
May 29, 2019
112
Wouldn't do shit for me. You know what, actually... I'd be even worse off because I would have no real obligations or much less that I already do. Needing to work is one of the only reasons I can even fight the urge to sink into the bed sometimes.
 
Scribble Fan

Scribble Fan

I'm out!
May 30, 2019
815
I'd finally be able to afford N lol