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idelttoilfsadness21

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We all know most of us won't experience that in this life, and I personally (and PM me if you choose to) want to make comics (using photos online and me creating scripts over the scenery for every user here on their own version of a happy ending and make fun stories over the pain we all experienced, but in your own words, how would you detail your own journey if it were a different way and suffering, too?

For me, I'd say my journey ended by me dying by getting a hit by a car accident that slammed way too fast, no one could save my, my heart gave out, I couldn't be resuscitated, and after I turned 19, I prevented myself from enduring the rest of 2023 and going through trauma and I got my wish of feeling contempt and happy at peace in my desired outcome for peace and tranquility without ever feeling endangered in any way and I was forgotten by people who would hurt me for years to come...
 
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Forever Sleep

Earned it we have...
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I think, had my Mum not died when I was 3, I'd likely be on a very different path now. Still, I'm not entirely sure it would have turned out ok still. The far safer option would have been not to have been born at all. Not sure I really buy the fairytale happy ending.
 
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idelttoilfsadness21

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I think, had my Mum not died when I was 3, I'd likely be on a very different path now. Still, I'm not entirely sure it would have turned out ok still. The far safer option would have been not to have been born at all. Not sure I really buy the fairytale happy ending.
Hehehe out of all the similarities we possess, and out of all the different views we have, your wonderful personality and your endurement to see people, I relate to this one the most. Hoping that story would captured a sense of peace though, for you at least, even though it would've been much difficult regardless how it turned out here with her in it too. Once again, deeply sorry for both your loss and your sense of longing and protection. 🥹💕
 
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nogods4me

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At this point the only happy ending would be a quick and peaceful death that spares me further pain, humiliation, abuse and criminalization by the disgusting medical community.
 
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At this point the only happy ending would be a quick and peaceful death that spares me further pain, humiliation, abuse and criminalization by the disgusting medical community.
It will be reality too soon :>
Dreams do come true 🥹
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

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Sep 24, 2020
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By ceasing to exist, the only relief for me could lie in permanent non-existence where all is finally gone, I wish to not exist as after all there are no disadvantages to the peace of eternal sleep, there cannot be any suffering in being unconscious for all eternity. I just want to never suffer in this torturous, cruel existence ever again, I'd personally be so relieved to cease existing as to me existence really is the most torturous abomination that causes so much suffering all for the sake of it and problems there were never a need for, I'll always see it as so deeply undesirable to be burdened with this existence.


To me existing is so undesirable in every way, I'd always prefer to not exist no matter what, only non-existence can bring me any peace, I just want the peace of never suffering ever again, I just wish for this existence to be all forgotten for me, I'll always see existence as the most terrible tragic mistake that just torments existing beings and I suffer so much from how I cannot just choose to fall asleep permanently and never exist ever again, all I hope for is the peace of an eternal dreamless sleep where nothing can concern me.
 
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By ceasing to exist, the only relief for me could lie in permanent non-existence where all is finally gone, I wish to not exist as after all there are no disadvantages to the peace of eternal sleep, there cannot be any suffering in being unconscious for all eternity. I just want to never suffer in this torturous, cruel existence ever again, I'd personally be so relieved to cease existing as to me existence really is the most torturous abomination that causes so much suffering all for the sake of it and problems there were never a need for, I'll always see it as so deeply undesirable to be burdened with this existence.


To me existing is so undesirable in every way, I'd always prefer to not exist no matter what, only non-existence can bring me any peace, I just want the peace of never suffering ever again, I just wish for this existence to be all forgotten for me, I'll always see existence as the most terrible tragic mistake that just torments existing beings and I suffer so much from how I cannot just choose to fall asleep permanently and never exist ever again, all I hope for is the peace of an eternal dreamless sleep where nothing can concern me.

FuneralCry, this is so eloquently put and structured. I truly do hope you have that ending day. I've been seeing all of your messages about this related sentiment and peace of writing structure of poetry for your specific hope, desire, and cries, regardless of it is a vent or not, and I am really happy to know someone can write it down so well how we all feel of this existence, because it might've been so much you endured to even knew deep inside what you were going through to focus on it much more than the average person, much like @lawlietsph or @ijustwishtodie, but knowing you feel this way a lot also breaks my heart, too, all while feeling like I see you and your want for peace. I'm glad to know you find this as your personal happy ending. I truly do hope you have that delightful, peaceful dream come true soon without much wait or longing, especially as literally... This is very much the happy ending we all want right now, as stated by @nogods4me and @Forever Sleep above. :))
 
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noname223

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Aug 18, 2020
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I do it daily to me but I keep the details to myself (sorry for the NSFW but I could not resist.)
 
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idelttoilfsadness21

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I do it daily to me but I keep the details to myself (sorry for the NSFW but I could not resist.)
I didn't even know what you were on about, but good job for you :>
(Now, would it satisfy you to have that even when you're depressed though?)
If you mean by love and lust, happy for you too!!
 
darkenmydoorstep

darkenmydoorstep

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Sep 27, 2023
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The peaceful pill would be the way I'd do it. 100%, if I did it myself but I'd much prefer just to die in my sleep tonight. To go to bed tonight and just not wake up. That would be my happiest ending really, understated, relaxed in a comfy bed. But I can't conjure up that scenario, sadly, no matter how many times I've tried to manifest it.
 
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