How will you make your last day on this Earth special?

[takeyourshotfunboy]

I want to sort of indulge in myself the day or week before I die. Maybe watch my favorite movies, listen to my favorite music, allow myself to eat my favorite foods. I want it to be special.

What do you want to do to make your last day special, if anything?

 

[trynacbt]

I'll most likely try and spend the most time with my sister and father as possible. And I'll pray.
Write to those I love, subtly, so that no one suspects anything.
Take a long shower. Listen to songs I like.
Try to be at peace.

 

[Kikoo Loool]

Sharing time with my ss friend and suicide partner.

 

[CrushedHopes]

I don't think I'll do anything particularly special. I'll just take the SN and be done with it as fast as I can.

 

[FTL.Wanderer]

I used to want to be with "friends." I had this fantasy of watching movies together, enjoying unhealthy but delicious food, laughing without any inhibition... I guess if I could have done that sort of thing, I wouldn't be in my situation. Now, I'd just want to enjoy the foods I don't allow myself because I can't control myself. That and watch a few of my favorite movies again, die while listening to a favorite song, eyes fixed on a repeating loop of my favorite images flitting across my laptop screen.

 

[sullengirl]

Just doing the things that made life tolerable even for a moment. I'm trying to find a balance between making it special, and not making a big deal out of it. View the sunset, smoke all the weed I've been saving for that day, and watch a movie that I've seen a billion times for the billionth plus one time. I have a playlist for the last 6-7 hours, exactly in the order I want to hear it. Probably a lot of meditation as well.

 

[Lord Taco]

Go Fishing... Few rolls of sushi and call it a day.

 

[Reyki6667]

Dunno, before I'll cbt, I think I watch the stars in an area without hindering lights, while camping , drink some fine wine and eat some good food and listen some good music.....

 

[BPD_LE]

I'll be amongst nature and wildlife. The only place I see real beauty.

 

[Lord Taco]

Dunno, before I'll cbt, I think I watch the stars in an area without hindering lights, while camping , drink some fine wine and eat some good food and listen some good music.....

Out in West Texas we have some of the Blackest Skies in the world, the stars are amazing.

 

[Suicideisnirvana]

Honestly i don't want to make it special, i'm already drained and don't want any attachment or sensual-stimulus (as that would just remind me of how lacking my life is in that aspect and frustrates me), i'll probably just smoke weed. The day will already be special enough for being the day of liberation.

 

[Flightlinek]

I will spend my last day just like any other day. I've been trying (unsuccessfully, of course) to CTB for years... at first, I tried to make the days special and do special things, then I would find myself regretting spending too much or missing work or whatever when my attempt failed.

Then I realized that I should spend EVERY day like it's my last day. Now, if I want to go to the beach, I go. If I want to travel, I travel. If I felt right now that my last day should be spent eating French food and lounging on a blanket in the park, then I would hit a French restaurant for lunch tomorrow and spend the afternoon in the park across the street from my favorite French place.

Of course, I'm very fortunate that I have a job and lifestyle that affords me the luxury to live that way.

 

[MourningHeart]

I wont do anything special.
But i would appreciate if SI will not make me too anxious in the very last moments. Life was cruel enough.

 

[drake4871]

If anything I'm just grateful for where I am, it could be SO much worse. If anything with my last day I want to help prevent at least one person become a little happier

 

[ladolcemorte]

I think the only thing I will do is eat a lot of yummy food. That and fly first class to the bridge I am jumping off of.

 

[LegaliseIt!]

Hoping for northern lights.

 

[Moonicide]

Probably just spend it with my pet along with being on SS, don't think I can bare talking to my loved ones on the day I ctb.

 

[noctiva]

Nothing different from any other day. I will most likely ctb in the morning, so I don't have to wind myself up the whole day and get SI to be heightened. Just take meto stat in the morning, send the delayed emails, take the antacid and then the SN. Lie down, hug my pink unicorn plush and die.