Help How will people react if you want to CTB in the far future?

[borntosuffer]

I had a whole post typed out, but my page suddenly refreshed when I pressed full stop...

I have normal goals for my life, like having a stable career and being a foster parent, but I still want to CTB when I'm old and grey. How will people, like my therapist, psychiatrist, and family react if I tell them I have plans to CTB in the far, far future? Will I go inpatient? I truly want to open up about this, because I'm one of those people who won't let others suffer in silence, so why should I? If I keep my CTB thoughts as a secret long enough, it will eventually show outwardly, like through my irritable and assholey behaviors. I am not looking for what you simply think would happen; I am looking for insight from people with experience. Thank you.

 

[Valky]

I feel the exact same way as you but sadly or luckily, everyone is different and everyone will react differently. I wish it was easier to talk about the wish to die with people outside of SaSu. :/

 

[snowcloud9]

You usually don't get hospitalized unless you're an immediate danger to yourself, like if you said you had plans for the next week. I doubt they would hospitalize you for that.

 

[borntosuffer]

I feel the exact same way as you but sadly or luckily, everyone is different and everyone will react differently. I wish it was easier to talk about the wish to die with people outside of SaSu. :/

You're right; SaSu seems like the only safe place in the world to talk about these things. I have been in group therapy before, but of course, we were all experiencing different things. However, a lot of us were experiencing thoughts to CTB, and it was nice that I wasn't alone or crazy for thinking that.

 

[Valky]

Also, welcome to SaSu! I hope you have a good stay here and will find what you are looking for :)

Your name made me laugh ngl, it is great!

I am glad that you got to have that experience, it's really important to validate such feelings which makes it even a bigger problem that people don't talk about suicidal ideation.