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Jengator

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Sep 24, 2019
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I feel like I have to make a good and timely decision. My dad left indefinitely because my mom is in the hospital. No clue what will happen with my mom or when my dad will be coming back. I just put the food delivery app on my phone hoping I can figure it out.
I'm pretty much completely disabled physically and mentally but not receiving benefits or assistance as my illness is hard to prove and get doctor support for. My dad has sufficiently smeared me to the point where nobody wants to help.
I can't seem to bring myself to ending everything which some have said it means I'm not ready. I'm not sure I can ever get there. I guess if it becomes apparent that I'm not able to move/starving, nobody is coming to save me, nor will going to an institution make it any better. What's the best method at that point for someone who doesn't like physical violence?
Haven't been successful getting delivery of N but I'm getting close to really needing it. My gastro system may not be able to process the prep meds for SN. Scared of everything at this point. Maybe I have to accept a drawn out painful death. Don't know what to do. Thank you.
 
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Rachel74

Rachel74

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Sep 7, 2019
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Where are you? If you are in the uk please call citizens advise bureau and social services as you need urgent help.
 
J

Jengator

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Sep 24, 2019
139
I do. I'm in the US. Scary to think of where I would go. I can't handle meds or most foods although they might still give it to me thinking I'm crazy when I'm not.
 
Rachel74

Rachel74

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Sep 7, 2019
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You need to call someone to help you.
 
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If only there was always someone you could turn to for help. I'm not far off a similar situation. In the UK you'd imagine social services would help.
 
J

Jengator

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Sep 24, 2019
139
I'm not really sure who to call. Friends and family just say you need a doctor. They offer to drive, get food. All helpful things for a more functioning person.
 
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You do have friends and family though that is something at least. It's even worse if you are completely alone.
 

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