It's just been another day of me wishing for the peace that only eternal nothingness can bring, I'm tired of suffering in this futile and cruel existence, to have the option to just fall asleep permanently truly would be such a relief for me. It's always so dreadful to be trapped in this existence, it's really hellish to me how I cannot just have the option to painlessly free myself from existing. To have the ability to exist truly is the most undesirable burden, I'd always prefer to not exist and I never would have chosen to exist at all, eternal nothingness really is all that's desirable as it's the permanent absence of all suffering and harm.