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Everythingiwanted
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- Dec 4, 2019
- 8
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Hello everyone, and thanks to anyone who will reply.
I am a 19 year old female and i have come to the decision of taking my life anytime soon.
I have attempted suicide twice so far. The first time it was by hanging (age 12) and i obviously failed because i had no idea on how to properly do it. The second time was by drug (as in medication) overdose (also age 12). That obviously also failed. I had no idea of what drugs to use, i popped every pill in the house i could get my hands on and hoped to die.
My biggest fear, is failing at hanging myself and end up with brain damage or paralyzed. My second concearn is that i currently live with my fiance and i dont want him to find me. I know he'd be better off without me but nobody wants to see a dead body. I have tried today with a rope to see if it would work but im really REALLY scared of failing at this.