How to successfully ctb with fentanyl

[girlzjustwant2vomit]

Hey! So I've been going through some options and I think that a fentanyl overdose would be best for me. I don't know how to do it though so is there a guide posted on here or can somebody tell me how to? I've never used fentanyl before and I've heard that small amounts can be deadly, so how much should I use? And what method for using it? Also does anybody have any tips on how to get it? I'm planing to ctb in the Netherlands so I'd either have to get it there which idk how to do or I could get it where I live (college town, it's everywhere lol) and find a way to sneak it through tsa. I actually had a friend that snuck some meth through tsa by cutting a hole in her pad and hiding it there but it still feels risky idk. Any tips/info would be greatly appreciated! Thank you! :p
Oh I forgot to clarify, I'm ctb-ing in zuidlaren but idk where I'm staying yet. I have family and friends all over so if there's a specific area where it would easy to get please lmk!